Life of Valere Wanie

Saya sunyi.

2010-12-14T23:59:00.002+08:00

Saya sunyi.

Sangat-sangat sunyi.

Cuba cari ubat tapi tak jumpa sampai hari ini.

Cuba cari punca kenapa sunyi.

Masih tak jumpa.

Tapi bila fikir balik, saya yang nak macam ni.

Saya yang pilih untuk tidak jumpa orang.

Saya yang elek untuk ke mana-mana.

Tak punya alasan kenapa.

Entah la.

belajarlah untuk cinta.

2010-06-07T00:26:00.001+08:00

wanie, tolonglah.

sila bekukan hati anda.

setelah dia pergi..

2010-05-13T09:19:00.000+08:00

setiap kali bila dengar berita yang tidak menyenangkan,seperti kematian,hati ini mesti sebak.biar pun orang yang meninggal dunia tu aku tak kenal.pernah juga tgh2 drive on the road, nampak van jenazah lalu dengan lampu siren yang berkelip-kelip, aku tersu menangis.

kadang2 bertanye jugak pada diri sendiri.kenapa menangis?menangis kerana teringatkan mereka yang meninggalkan aku dan adik2 atau menangis kerana aku tahu apa dan bagaimana rasenyer kehilangan orang yang kita sayang.apatah lagi jika pemergian itu secara tiba-tiba.

believe me, the least i wanna hear about is the news about death.bukanlah menolak ketentuanNya,cuma kadang2 tak boleh nak control sebak di dada.hari pun jadi muram jer.

these past few days, i've been sick.sakit gigi la.demam la.muntah2 la.nothing serious.cuma semua jadi dalam waktu yg sama.when i was sick,sangat-sangat teringat my arwah mama and ayah.aku mase tu teringin sangat nk cakap dgn diorg.tell them im sick.i wanted to be consoled.by them.not anyone else.teringin sangat.sampai nangis jugak la.

mungkin juga perasaan ni sebab tgk tv byk sngt.yerlah, ahad lepas kan mother's day.on that day itself, aku and adik2 pegi dinner.and we could see that ramai family yang kluar makan to celebrate mother's day.hati jadi sayu.tapi hati juga kena kuat.tak boleh nangis depan adik2.my adik2 pun seems strong.or maybe they wanted to look strong,just like me.ya Allah,macam mane lah agaknye hati mereka menerima semua ini?harap2 hati mereka tabah seprti mana mereka tabah secara luaran.

setipa kejadian ade hikmahnye.i`ve been telling myself this over and over.supaya tidak terpesong sangat dengan kesedihan di hati.

to those out there (in case you are reading this, :)),aku bukanlah manusia yg baik sgt pun.aku juga pernah nakal.esp dengan mak ayah.but if your parents are still alive, appreciate them.respect them.care for them.kadang2 ade jugak geramnye dengan mak ayah kita ni.but take it something that we will remember bout them.jangan sakitkan hati mereka.because when they are gone, that is the most yg kita akan ingat.because if we dont respect,appreciate and care for them,when they are gone,that will be the most regrettable moment in our life.

this entry was made because my dear adik farhan (fana's brother) had just lost his fiance-to-be.her name is alya.she had undergone a surgery in singapore.after the surgery she was infected that cause her death.May her soul rest among blessed souls by Allah.when i heard the news, tu yg teringat nk buat entry ni.

to Farhan,sometimes we thought we could never be able to get thru this.but eventually,without we even realising it,Allah will help us to ge thru this.Allah itu Maha Pengasih.Dia takkan beri dugaan yang tak mampu kita tanggung.. ( a word to myself jugak ) sabar yer dik..

Fana, you too need to be strong.especially utk Farhan.he needs everyone's support.which im sure he will have it from all of you..sumthing that no need to worry about. because ur family is full with love and support.i know that. :)

Semoga roh Alya,Mama, Ayah, and Delima ditempatkan dengan orang-orang beriman dan dicucuri rahmat.Amiinnn...

p/s: Minty, all of a sudden,aku teringat kau.we need to be strong kan?we are and will always be. :)

3 tahun.

2010-04-19T01:00:00.002+08:00

3 tahun.

saya suka awak.

3 tahun.

saya pendam rasa.

3 tahun.

saya tahan dengan dingin awak.

3 tahun.

kejap kawan kejap tidak.

3 tahun.

saya tunggu ajakan awak.

3 tahun.

baru dapat jumpa awak.

3 tahun.

saya cuba lupakan awak.

3 tahun.

saya masih ingat awak.

3 tahun.setakat 3 tahun.

cukup lah 3 tahun.

takkan ada tahun yang ke 4.

p/s: sumpah pengakuan berani mati.huhu

Saya rindu dia.sangat rindu.

2010-04-07T15:27:00.002+08:00

This song reminds me of her.

In Memory

Delima @ Nur Syazreen Rosli

1989-2003

Al-fatihah.

Kak Wanie rindu Ime.

Aftermath

2010-03-30T11:55:00.002+08:00

'Aftermath' by Adam Lambert

Have you lost your way?

Livin' in the shadow of the messes that you made

And so it goes

Everything inside your circle starts to overflow

Take a step before you leap

Into the colours that you seek

You give back what you give away

So don't look back on yesterday

Wanna scream out

No more hiding

Don't be afraid of what's inside

Gonna tell ya you'll be alright

In the Aftermath

Anytime anybody pulls you down

Anytime anybody says you're not allowed

Just remember you are not alone

In the Aftermath

You feel the weight

Of lies and contradictions that you live with every day

It's not too late

Think of what could be if you rewrite the role you play

Take a step before you leap Into the colours that you seek

You give back what you give away So don't look back on yesterday

Wanna scream out

No more hiding

Don't be afraid of what's inside

Gonna tell ya you'll be alright

In the Aftermath

Anytime anybody pulls you down

Anytime anybody says you're not allowed

Just remember you are not alone

In the Aftermath In the Aftermath

Before you break you have to shed your armor

Take a trip and fall into the glitter

Tell a stranger that they're beautiful

So all you feel is love, love

All you feel is love, love

Wanna scream out

No more hiding

Don't be afraid of what's inside

Wanna tell you you'll be alright

In the Aftermath

Wanna scream out

No more hiding

Don't be afraid of what's inside

Gonna tell ya you'll be alright

In the Aftermath

Anytime anybody pulls you down

Anytime anybody says you're not allowed

Just remember you are not alone In the Aftermath

In the Aftermath

Gonna tell ya you'll be alright

In the Aftermath

Just remember you are not alone

In the Aftermath

p/s: Love the song.but not the singer. :p

hati,jantung dah otak diuji.macam mane tu?

2010-03-27T00:15:00.002+08:00

Dia mengajar kita untuk bersabar.

yang membezakan antara manusia adalah tahap kesabaran itu.

tapi lumrah manusia,sabar kita ada batasnya.

rasa seperti kesabaran sudah sampai ke tahapnya.

sehingga tidak mampu dibendung lagi.

mungkin juga belum.

dada ini seakan-akan ditusuk pisau yg tumpul berkali-kali.

tanpa henti.

lukanya cepat sembuh.kerana ada pengubat yang mujarab.

tapi ubat juga bila selalu diguna,akan hilang kesannya.immune.

selagi masih boleh bertahan,bertahan sajalah.

hati,kuatlah.

jantung,jangan degup selajunya.sakit.

otak,berehatlah.penat.

harapnya biar tak jumpa hujung jalan kesabaran itu.

p/s: saya tak pandai berkata-kata.tapi inilah seikhlas mungkin yang datang dari hati.dan perasaan.

just another nite which i cant sleep! so here we go!

2010-03-26T02:43:00.002+08:00

wow! sangat-sangat lama taupdate blog ni.
bukan setakat bersawang dah ni,ni dah tahap lalang naik tinggi dah.huhu

nak kata busy,orang lain pun busy jugak kan? :)
nak kata malas,erm..itu mungkin. :D
nak kata mengelak untuk berbicara mengenai nya juga berkemungkinan. :)

life has been really good.so far.alhamdulillah.takde la masalah yg major sampai tak terhandle.
kerja pun ok walaupun dah masuk dekat 4 bulan,masih lagi dalam mood yg nak adapt dgn environment.mengada-ngada i know. ;)

my angels,ena and yin.though ade skit masalah,its not something that we cannot fix.time will decide.

friendship.erm.this one really got tested.
tapi kata hati menguatkan semangat.
we need to know who or what is our priority.
we need to open up our eyes to see who is actually having our back whenever we are about to fall.
sometimes we thought that they were there,they got our back.
but unfortunately,its just shadow of them.its your mind that wants them to be there.
but in reality,it can be someone else.

thats why u need to open up your heart and eyes.
so that you would not lost those who actually there for you.

and another lesson,dont take things too seriously! a note for myself. =)
i need to cheer up and look forward!
awaits for what will happen in future..
isnt that much for fun than spending too much time grieving for what had happen in the past or even hoping something would changed but u did nothing to make that changes?
im being too positive i know.

but i need to be. :)

:)

2009-12-24T12:33:00.002+08:00

alhamdulillah.
setakat ni bos saya baik.
slalu bagi kerja itu tandanye dia percaya kita.good as of now.

legal assistant pun baik.sbb dia kawan saya di uia dulu.hehe.
terima kasih encik hazwan.
walau baru 2 hari bekerja bersama anda, banyak benda yang saya pelajari.
saya berharap saya dapat belajar lebih banyak lagi daripada anda.

kakak a.k.a para legal di ofis saya pun baik dan cool.
ade seorang gadis a.k.a admin clerk pun sgt baik.
orang kata too early to judge.
tapi setakat ini, saya bersyukur.

bersyukur mendapat bos yang baik.
bersyukur mendapat legal assistant yang baik.
bersyukur mendapat para legal yang baik.
bersyukur mendapat rakan sekerja yang baik.

p/s utk diri sendiri : wanie,sila bersyukur.jika masih alpa,tak tau la nak kata mcm mana lagi.
: sila rajin kan diri anda.
:sila teliti dalam semua perkara.sebab saya baru sedar(ok tak sepatutnya tapi saya ingat saya tak macam ni) bahawa saya ni agak kurang teliti.nk cepat je sume benda.mane boleh bai. :)
alhamdulillah saya masih mampu untuk senyum. :)) selebar-lebarnya.
saya harap walau ade obstacles yg melanda selepas ini, saya masih boleh untuk senyum.walaupun senyum tak ikhlas. hehe

entry ini agak merapu.tapi ia isi hati saya.so what!

entry tak siap

2009-12-22T19:33:00.002+08:00

sambil tunggu laundry siap, aku duduk di sini.
bertanya pada diri.mengimbau kembali.2009.

well, it might be too early untuk mengulas 2009.tapi dengan apa yg telah dilalui, rasenyer cukup untuk menjadi topik entry kali ni.

sebagaimana tahun2 yang lepas, 2009 byk mengajar aku.
tentang hidup.
tentang moving on.
tentang persahabatan.
tentang pelajaran.
tentang adik-adik.
tentang keluarga.

but dalam2 byk yg diajar, friendship has its own lessons.tonnes of lesson.
menangis jugak bila fikirkan bout it.
menangis jugak bila tulis bout it.

i need to stop here.
tak boleh dah.

..........

saya di sini. =)

2009-12-03T13:30:00.002+08:00

salam.
lamenyer ta hupdate.
huhu.hmmm...

sekarang ni kat uia..
kt itd lab.and for the 1st time ever i can use my own account to access the internet.
YES.after 4 years baru boleh pakai.damn.i wasted rm25 every semester mcm tu je sbb tak boleh pakai internet kat lab!

takpela.now dah boleh pakai kan? :)

im waiting for the finance office to re-open.
sekarang tgh lunch hour.
i need to submit the bank's slip.
klau tak sampai ke sudah la tak boleh nak check result.

sebenarnyer, last october dah bayar dah tuition fee.
tapi slip tu aku hilangkan.tak ingat letak mane.
so tadi pegi bank request for copy of the slip.
and since the transaction was in october, they said 'berzaman' sikit la nak cari slip tu.

i ended up had to pay another rm1200 for this semester fees.damn.amik 3 subjek jer tapi fee can ape je.again my fault.sape suruh xtend.

despite all the not-so-good news,i got good news jugak! :)
i got an interview.as an attachment student..
this is my 1st interview ever in my life..
before this mmg la pernah attached to firm and organisation,tapi tu sume automatic dapat without having to go thru any interviews sbb its under aikol.

but this attachment i cari sendiri with the help of my kakak angkat,kak jije( thank you akak).
dapat tak dapat belum tentu lagi.
tapi dah tentu la aku berharap dapat.
its the experience that i wanna earn.
payless pun takpe..hee.cam desperate jer.

tapi klau tak dpat takpe..
im ok with it..
rezeki bukan urusan kita. :)

serius perut lapar sambil buat entry tapi segan nak pegi makan sensorang kt uia ni especially dekat hs cafe sbb tak biasa pegi sana sorang2 and takut jugak terserempak dgn orang yg aku tak nak terserempak.fuhhh.! :)

better stop now.
nk dekat kul 2 dah pun.eh lagi setengah jam la.lambat nyerrrrrr...

hmmm...
p/s: thank you min.thank you sgt2. :)

i just wanna be happy.

2009-11-10T23:22:00.001+08:00

saya suka. =))

cute!

2009-11-09T01:57:00.002+08:00

Underneath the moon,
Underneath the stars
Heres a little heart for you
Up above the world,
Up above it all
Heres a hand to hold on to

But if I should break,
If I should fall away
What am I to do?
I need someone to take,
A little of the weight
Or I'll fall through

You're just the one
That I've been waiting for
I'll give you
All that I have
To give and more
But don't let me fall

Take a little time,
Walk a little line
Got the balance right
Give a little love,
Gimme just enough
So that I can hang on tight

We will be alright,
I'll be by your side
I wont let you down
But I gotta know,
No matter how things go
That you will be alright

You're just the one
That I've been waiting for
I'll give you all
That I have
To give and more
But don't let me fall

Underneath the moon,
Underneath the stars
Heres a little heart for you
Up above the world,
Up above it all
Heres a hand to hold on to

Your just the one
That I've been waiting for
I'll give you
All that I have
To give and more
But don't let me fall

You'll be the one
That I'll love forever more
I'll be here holding you
High above it all
But don't let me fall

tahulah aku.

2009-10-24T03:33:00.004+08:00

saya juga 24.

terima kasih kerana mengingatkan.

saya juga punya keutamaan.

terima kasih kerana menyedarkan.

penyelesaiannya mungkin mudah.

jika tidak difahami, aku harus memahami.

jika tidak dimengerti, aku harus ertikan.

jika aku tidak dicari, aku harus mencari.

tahulah aku.jadi aku akan cuba.

tapi.bukankah aku pernah mencari? dan akhirnya?

terima kasih. :)

:)

2009-10-05T00:21:00.002+08:00

wah!
lamanye tak singgah rumah ni. :)
its been a hectic months! hehe

banyak benda yg buka mata aku.
banyak juga benda yang buka mata hati aku.
buat aku sedar tentang banyak perkara.
terutama tentang orang2 di sekeliling aku.
siapa yang ada,siapa yang tiada.
siapa yang pernah ada.
siapa yang masih ada.

antara pengajaran yang paling besar dalam hidup.
buat aku kenal siapa kawan dan siapa lawan.
but its ok.
aku akan ok.
dan sedang ok. :)
should be ok.
;)

p/s: ikmal,i had a great time today with u and shah.tq very much for the ride.bila boleh jumpa lagi dan gossip lagi? hehe

i like it. :)

2009-10-04T00:35:00.000+08:00

Friends
by Tamara K. McCully

The relationship between two friends
Is more than you can hold in your hands
It feels like it could never break
Or someone could ever take
Then suddenly like the break of dawn
Someone else comes along
Then the relationship bends so much that it breaks apart
And soon it breaks a heart.

to both of you.

2009-09-06T14:25:00.003+08:00

saya cuba untuk tidak berfikir.
tidak berfikir yang bukan2.
tapi klau dah benda di depan mata,
patut saya buat tak tahu saja ke?

peritnya nye hati.
bila kita tak tahu what is actually going on.
tapi saya tahu, perit lagi hati mereka.
ada yang saya buat sesuatu,sehingga mcm ni akhirnya.
dont ask me what it is,for i dont know what it is.

kepada anda, mungkin juga maaf ni yang entah ke berepa kali,yang mungkin juga belum mampu untuk meredakan keadaan.tapi aku ikhlas.sungguh aku ikhlas.

SAYA MINTA MAAF.
minta maaf kerana melukakan hati anda.
minta maaf kerana menganggu hidup anda with the sms and calls.

i miss both of you terribly.
tapi tak pe la.
i deserve this mungkin.

terasa nak berlari.

2009-07-21T23:25:00.002+08:00

saya terasa nak berlari.

berlari ke hujung sana

tanpa peduli apa pun di sekeliling saya.

tanpa peduli apa orang kata.

tanpa peduli apa mereka rasa.

tanpa peduli siapa pun mereka.

saya terasa nak berlari.

berlari sekuat hati.

selaju mungkin.

sejauh yang boleh.

agar hati yang rapuh ini

tidak lagi disakiti.

tidak lagi dibebani.

tidak lagi berhasad dengki.

satu hari saya akan pergi.

tanpa mereka sedari.

itu pasti.

itu janji.

new semester,new goals.

2009-07-13T00:41:00.002+08:00

salam everyone.

tomorrow, a new semester will starts.

and as usual, im currently still at home.

esok pagi2 baru nk gerak balik uia.

for those yg kenal aku,they wuld definitely know whats going on.

im having this syndrome called taknak-balik-uia syndrome.

the symptoms are as follow:

1.sepatutnya check in mahallah harini tapi ditunda kepada esok.

2.sepatutnya dah packing barang2 tapi masih belum buat.

3.asyik mengeluh tak nak balik uia.sampaikan mood pun terganggu.

4.belum balik uia dah plan nk balik rumah everyday for first two weeks.hehe

5.once melangkah kaki keluar dari rumah,rasa sebak terus melanda.

6.banyak lagi.tapi nanti akan diberitahu kelak.

so these are the symptoms.maybe ramai akan kata,mcm la dia sorang je homesick.rumah dekat pun nk homesick.i couldnt care less.thats me.mmg mcm ni dari zaman matrik lagi.except symptom no.5 tu baru2 je.

why do i have all this symptoms?

simple.i love staying at home so much.i hate when my sisters are not before my eyes.im afraid that something would happen and im not there.it happened before.

im also afraid of being in uia because i may not have time to go home because if i go home,then i would reluctant to go back to uia and so i wuld decide not to go home.u get what i mean?

yang ni pun pernah jadi jugak.sampai kan hampir sebulan tak balik rumah.

nk kata pelik pun ya.nk kata mengada2 pun ya.

BUT! regardless of anything, for this new semester,i have few goals that need to be achieved.

1.puasa is coming.im planning to buka puasa at home EVERYDAY.if possible la.that means i'll be off-campus during ramadhan.IF POSSIBLE la.

2.try to go home every weekends.and tak nak dah liat balik uia.

3.i wanna improve my result.i made it last semester.i wanna do it better this time around.

4.focus on my studies.no more main2.

5.DIET.why this one no 5 eh?hehe.i guess less important kot.NAH! tak la.i`ll try my best. =)

6.NO MORE PONTENG.hehe.this one pun if possible la.klau tak ponteng langsung mcm impossible je kan?it shuld be LESS PONTENG. ngeee.

7.there will be more tapi nanti diupdate lagi.

so whether i can achieve these goals or not,bergantung la.tawakkal is also very important.

despite the abovementioned goals, i also have the things-which-i-need-to-just-disregrad list.

but that one i`ll do later la kay.that list is important jugak.so that i would not waste my time on unecessary matters.

tawakkal kepada Allah.Usaha pun penting.word for myself.

till we meet again.
hurm.MALAS NYE NAK BALIK UIA.HELP!

he's married.

2009-07-12T01:35:00.002+08:00

he's married now.

i should be happy kan?

i am though.

but the moment i saw the pictures..

i was blank.and tears dropped.

lots of things on my mind now.too many.

memories..

2009-06-25T23:11:00.002+08:00

away.

2009-06-18T00:20:00.002+08:00

salam..

i`ll be out from blogging world for a period of time.

how long would that be?

well,it depends.

i have final exams next week.there will be 2 papers only.

most importantly,on the 24th.

i hope i would not be away for too long.

nervous.scared to death.

hope everything is going to be okay.

Ya Allah,i hope everything will be smooth-running.Amin.

otherwise,its going to be the biggest challenge in my life..

my apology to you.

2009-06-17T13:14:00.004+08:00

salam.
i have to admit.
ape2 benda yang berasal dari rasa marah dan dendam,
takkan ade penghujung yang baik.
entry yg sebelum ni,penuh dgn amarah.
tanpa beringat,dia juga slalu ade untuk aku.
tanpa beringat,yang aku juga perlukan dia.
despite ape pun yg terjadi.
support each other is what we should do.
mungkin langkah yg aku ambil sebelum ini salah.
terlalu agresif mungkin.and harsh.
mungkin aku terlalu bongkak.membuatkan dirinya terasa begitu kecil.
sedangkan tidak.dia tidak kecil.
there's always 2 sides of story.
bukan semua salah dia.
bukan juga semua salah aku.

saya minta maaf.sepenuh hati.kepada awak.
i wish we could be as close as before.

should i even dream bout it?

2009-06-16T01:15:00.004+08:00

ok ok dokay..

salam everyone..

im back blogging.hee.

well,ni sebenarnyer tak boleh tidur..

im thinking of something.

that is...

I NAK KURUSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS!

i know i know i know..

some may said,that u had heard bout it ages ago.but nothings changed.

hurm...

i cant even look myself in the mirror..

not that i hate what Allah has created, but its just what i had done to it,damaging my body and still i did nothing so far to even cure or heal it.

i need to do something.im 24.i wanna look like 24.or even younger.

impossible?possible.

i hope. hee.

i need to do it by myself.

how am i gonna do it?

ntah.no idea so far.

but right now,one thing for sure,i wanna look like her.

who's 'her'?

from this to

this.can ah? heee

some people may say,alahai berangan la wanie ni.

i couldnt care less.

from tomorrow onwards,im going to do something or anything,so i can be like her.or at least be 10% out of her.hahaha.crazy me?

well,a challenge to myself.seriously.

i need to fix something.

lesson 2: what goes around,comes around.

2009-06-16T00:51:00.004+08:00

continue dari previous entry..

lesson 2

what goes around,comes around.believe it.

wher should i start?

simple sbenarnyer.ape2 aje yg kita buat kat orang,pasti akan terjadi pada kita.

itu janji Nya.

sebab itu Allah bagi kita akal.so that we can think before we act.

tapi kita ini manusia.we are open to mistakes.

BUT! we need to learn from the mistakes.tak boleh berdiam diri saje.

ok back to the lessons.

sebelum ni,ade la something terjadi kat aku.

nak cerita pun payah.sakit hati pun yer.

but to make it short and simple, it started when that person accused me of something that i wasnt meant to do.

that in some way i had hurt that person.that i neglected that person.that i had isolated that person.

believe me.that wasnt the intention.

but unfortunately,that was what that person felt.

i said sorry.and then we were okay.

BUT NOW! guess what?!that person did exactly wht i did before.see darling?it was not my intention to hurt u.i was just making friends.just like what u are doing now.the different is,i can totally understand.i accepted it.

but what makes me hurt is,the words that u gave to me before.about me isolating u.about me hurting you.for doing THE SAME thing u are currently doing.its the words that hurt me.not the action.take note on that.thats what makes us different.

so,what should i do with the situation?

all i can think of is,to learn from it.im not sure whether u learn from it or not.

but i surely do.how i wish i colud throw back those words u gave me before.

but im not as cruel as u.i guess.just not yet.

i can still bear with it.

so sakit hati whenever i think about it.

well, what goes around,comes around kan? ;)

Allah is The Almighty.He had shown it to u.

i should be thankful.i am.

rindu sama kalian. :(

lessons in life

2009-06-12T13:46:00.003+08:00

dah lebih sebulan tak update blog.

rasenyer la..

hee.

byk sebanrnyer yg nak diupdatekan..

tapi busy jugak.

busy tido sepanjang hari.

busy pegi class.

busy beronggeng dgn adik2.

busy beronggeng degn kawan2.

busy ym-ing.

busy segala lah!

dalam byk2 busy tuh, byk jugak yg aku belajar..

lesson 1

jangan minta sesuatu yg kita sendiri tak pasti mampu utk buat atau tidak.

all this while, aku slalu jeles bila tgk org ade couple..

on weekends, pegi mane2 pun jumpa couple..

aku sendiri pun teringin gak nk ade companionship..

nak ade org blanja tgk movie ke pegi jalan2 ke..(bukan kau ye mint..ni aku maksudkn lelaki.hehe)

bila ade masalah nk jugak bercerita..(ye fana aya mint disya,korang mmg pendengar setia..tapi kadang2 nk gak bermanja.kang aku bermanja dgn korang kang lain plak jadinyer..haha)

dan selama ni jugak,klau dgr kawan2 yg nak kawin or dah kawin,stress aku akan datang secara mengejut! dalam kepala aku,'KENAPA AKU TAK DE CALON LAGI?NAK KAWIN JUGAK!'

kawan2 dah terbiasa dgn sikap aku yg satu ni.

adik2 pun sama.

dah byk kali diorg advice aku.

masuk kepala satu hari je(belum jodoh,ade la tuh nanti,ko tak ready lagi sbenarnye.dan bermacm2 alasan diorg bagi sbb nk calm kan aku) tapi satu hari je la.esok maraung lagi.gelenyah teh. :))

dan pada satu hari, ade la seorang hamba Allah yg baru dapat hidayah.alhamdulillah.Allah itu Maha Esa kan.Niat di hati dia nk cari seorang isteri.aku kenal pun sbb ade org kenalkan.

mula2 on the phone, mmg he had made his intention clear,that he is looking for a wife.untuk bimbing dia.and he asked bout my opinion.i said,jumpa dulu.and we agreed.

bila dah jumpa,aku pula tak rasa we can go further.takde spark.and cara dia tak kena dgn cara aku.tak salah dia pun.bila jadi mcm ni,aku berfikir jugak.dulu nk sangat kawin.dah ade calon depan mata,tak nak plak.ape sebanrnyer yg aku nak?!

bila direnung2kan,baru aku faham.Allah tunjuk pada aku,aku tak ready sebenarnye utk kawin.yg selama ni aku merungut yg aku ni takde calon nk kawin tapi nk sangat kawin,sebenarnye aku tak ready lagi tuk sume tu.Ya Allah..byk cara sebenarnyer Allah nk bagi hidayah dan jalan.and i guess this is one of it.

pada yg mungkin terluka,saya minta maaf.ade yang lebih baik utk awak.semoga Allah akan terus memberi cahaya hidayah Nya buat awak.

kawan2 yg selama ini tahan dengan kerenah aku.terima kasih jugak. :))

adik2 yg tak jenuh dgr keluhan hati saban hari,aku sayang korang.sangat2. :))

lesson 2? tunggu entri seterusnya. ;)

surprise yang menjadi.akhirnya.

2009-05-07T23:39:00.003+08:00

salam everyone.
lama tak update blog ni kan. :D
but entry kali ni ade story skit.
about a surprise.for a friend.yang selama ni susah nk buat surprise kat dia.
sebabnye surprise untuk dia slalu tak menjadi.
slalu kantoi surprise kat dia.
but this time around, with the help from disya(thank you so much bestie! tanpa kau, surprise ni tak menjadi tau! ;), AKHIRNYA.SURPRISE untuk dia MENJADI.yeay!
siapa la agaknye orang yg di surprise kan? hehe
tak lain tak bukan cik fana kiter ler.

kronologi surprise adalah seperti berikut:

masa minggu final exams
dapat kad jemputan dari fana.
katanye abe pih nk kahwin.
dia suruh datang jgk.
but that time i told her mungkin tak dapat datang.
yerla,jauh tuh.
cuti plak time tuh.
tapi mase tu doubtful lg nk pegi ke tidak.

19th april 2009
final exam dah habis.
aku pun nekad nk beli tiket bus ke kota bharu.
terus pegi kat sani express counter yg kat shah alam tuh beli tiket bus ke kota bharu.

shah alam-pasir mas
departure: 1 may 2009 8.00 mlm

pasir mas-shah alam
departure: 2 may 2009 8.50 mlm

right after beli tiket, terus call disya.
informed her bout the plan.
siap bgtau ni jgn cakap kat sesiapa.
nobody knows la katakan.
and she agreed with the plan.

30th april 2009
went out for dinner with fana,aya,axwa and mint.
i asked fana,' flight mung esok balik kb pukul brapo?'
she said 1 noon.
i told her,kim salam ke umi and ba.
maaf la tak dapat datang.(ececececeh,acting la konon.hiks)
then she replied.'mung ni buke leh cayo.silap2 esok ade kat umah aku'.
ALAMAK!DAH KANTOI KE?
but still in the mood of pretending, i said no.
tak leh nk gi.mane nk cari tiket.
she bought it.dia percaye weh!
lega aku.
plan sedang berjalan dengan lancar.

1st may 2009
pukul 7 mlm, ena hantar aku kat stesen bus kt shah alam.
aku nervous.
tak pernah lagi travel sorang2 naik bus.
even kro(boyfren min cum org kelantan cum best fren aku jugak) tak caye yg aku ni bakal menempuhi perjalanan yg memakan masa 10 jam untuk ke pasir mas.
nway, I DID IT DUDE! hehe.

2nd may 2009
pkul 5.45 am, sampai pasir mas.
disya datang amik.
kesian dia.pagi2 dah kena bangun amik aku.
hehe.thank you so much disya.

sampai kat umah disya,aku tido kejap je.
then bangun and breakfast dgn mummy disya,angah disya,and disya's little rascals(anak2 buah dia la..4 of them ;) )
lepas breakfast,siap2 disya ajak pegi rantau panjang.
mula2 pegi umah tailor dia.
then terus ke rantau panjang tempat shopping tuh.
tapi tak shopping pun.
beli sepasang tudung,2 kain.buat emak angkat aku.
balik dari rantau panjang (siyes tempat tuh mmg panas la tapi mmg heaven untuk bershopping), siap2 nk pegi umah fana..

surprise!
sebelum pegi umah fana,ade la singgah a few places
pegi jumpa along disya.then pegi town kejap.
pastuh pergi murtabak raja.(orang kelantan mesti tau ni.femes dek murtabak dan akok nye)
then ke rumah fana.
jeng!jeng!jeng!

aku yg nk wat surprise utk dia pun rasa nervous.
sampai je,agak ramai la jugak.
family fana mmg femes.hehehe.
first family member yg nampak aku is farhan.adik fana.
then umi.
dan kemudian............
FANA!
wah nepik dia nampak aku.tapi control ayu lg.hehe.
akhirnya!surprise aku berjaya.
dia kata memg tak sangka aku nk datang.
ade instinct tapi dia kata surprise ni kira berjaya jugak la.
yes wanie! u made it!hiks.

then aku pergi menyapa kaum keluarga yang lain.
nk mention satu2 kang entry ni jadi berjela2 plak.(dah berjela dah pun.hee)
lepas makan aku pun jumpa ahli keluarga lain nk minta diri.
yerla msa tuh dah pukul 5.00 ptg.
janji dgn mummy disya nk dinner kt umah.

and so mlm tuh aku pun naik bus pulang ke shah alam.
perjalanan yang panjang.tapi bermakna.
kata 10 jam kan.mcm2 pikir.
tgk ragam org lagi.
:)
so kat sini aku nk make a few credit la.
first of all,definitely to disya.
tq so much bestie!
ko mmg host yg terbaik. :)
tq kt mummy and papa and angah disya jugak.
for letting me stay kt ur house.
to rani,(disya's maid) masakan loh memang kerennn! ;)
and to fana,yes! aku berjaya akhirnya!

wah panjang giler entry aku kali ni.
amik kau!sekali hupdate terus berjela.kira qada' la ni yeh.

meanwhile enjoy the pics taken during my trip to kelantan. ;)

Bisakah yang terhina dicinta?

2009-05-07T23:35:00.002+08:00

kebelakangan ini, hati berkata dan bertanya.
mampu kah? bisakah?
hmm.
tapi masih mencari jawaban.

Daku Terasa Ingin Membawa
Cinta Yang Terlara Ke Titik Mula
Kembali Mencuba Untuk Kali Kedua
Menggilapkan Gerhana Jiwa

Pernah Ku Terasa Ingin Merayu
Pada Kasih Dulu Pulang Padaku
Lupakan Dosaku Putihkan Kelabu
Tenangkan Amarahmu
Namun…

Bisakah Yang Terpadam Dinyala
Bisakah Yang Terhina Dicinta
Walau Ku Himpunkan Sesalku
Bisakah Terbuka Kalbu

Naluri Meminta Kuungkap Kata
Seindah Bahasa Janjikan Setia
Akan Bersemilah Cinta Dihatinya
Percaya Ku Semula
Namun…

Bisakah Yang Benci Disayangi
Bisakah Yang Dusta Dimaafi
Walauku Himpunkan Sesalku
Bisakah Terbuka Kalbu

Bila Senduku Berlinang Sayu
Dalam Rindu Ku Tertanya

Bisakah Yang Benci Disayangi
Bisakah Hatiku Difahami
Walauku Himpunkan Sesalku
Bisakah Terbuka Kalbu

makan bersama si kecik.

2009-05-06T00:47:00.000+08:00

i dreamed a dream

2009-04-29T14:05:00.003+08:00

this lady really reminds me of what my mama always taught us.
that you can never judge a book by its cover.
that inner side of a person is so much important than the outside look.

i was called big bird back when i was in my secondary.
since form 1 until form 5.
can u imagine that? hehehe.
people would remember me like this 'oh.which wanie?' 'ala,wanie big bird tuh'.
i was and still a chubby girl in secondary school.but the nickname was given not because of my size but because of my eye lashes like the big bird in sesame street.
thats where i got my nickname.

in fact i was called big bird until now.hee.
when i was in form 1, i complained to my mother that people at school been calling me with names.
and she asked me what kind of name.and so i told her bout the big bird.
and i cried in front of her.i remembered it was dinner time.
and instead of consoling me, she was mad at me for crying over that matter.
she said,'why should u cry? u should held your head up high and tell them that YES.I AM THE BIG BIRD BUT! WITH A BIG BRAIN'.

wow.i was stunned.it was SO motivated that time.in fact until now.thats what keep me going i guess.
and now,i dont mind people calling me big bird. :D
at least,at some point,though not that good, i am A BIG BIRD WITH A BIG BRAIN.hee.

so, how its related to the video above?
senang je.never let anyone pull you down.
coz u can do it.

my final exam result was out yesterday.cpc paper scares me until i looked at my result yesterday.
i was a bit shocked.and grateful at the same time.
it was not as good as others.but it was the best for me.
despite what i had gone thru last sem,it was all worth it.

i was so happy and yet i was sad.
sad because i could not share this with mama.
sad because i keep on question myself why didnt i performed like this when she was stil alive.
BUT. i know i cant have both.im grateful for what HE has given to us.
sangaat2 bersyukur.

at the same time,i realy hope that i will keep on performing like this for the next sem.even better.

hopefully..

biasa2 aje

2009-04-23T16:43:00.001+08:00

sudah lama saya tidak update blog ku ini.
hehehehe.
exam dah lepas.
currently im at home.
busy jadi surirumah.
tapi tak la busy sangat.
not much update.
later la h kay. ;)

penting diri.

2009-03-18T14:04:00.002+08:00

hati yang merintih,
tidak kau tahu.
atau mungkin kau tidak mahu ambil tahu.
penting diri.

January 5

2009-03-16T02:36:00.002+08:00

i wrote this on january 5 2009.
its about her. :)
but only now i have the guts to publish it. :)

JANUARY 5

january 5
the day she left us with a beautiful smile
we knew it was her last goodbye
and so we cried.

but the mourn was never long
as we know we need to move on

'life must go on.you will get used to lost'
some people say
but we miss her even more
every single day.

we love you mama.and always will.

how can they know eh? ;)

2009-03-16T00:09:00.002+08:00

oh my oh my!
i did a test.personality quiz actually.
and here is the result.
guess what?!!
almost all are true!
hmm.
;)
check out my comment on each of it ;)
p/s: aya,its so ture isnt it?
aku amik link dia dari blog mung la ni. hee.

Your view on yourself:
You are down-to-earth and people like you because you are so straightforward. You are an efficient problem solver because you will listen to both sides of an argument before making a decision that usually appeals to both parties. am i that straight forward?in some matters ya.problem solver?hee.

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:
You like serious, smart and determined people. You don't judge a book by its cover, so good-looking people aren't necessarily your style. This makes you an attractive person in many people's eyes. so true! i dont believe in good looks.having it is a bonus though.but still,good looks doesnt gurantee you anything.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:
You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person. I AM! I AM! haha.giler desperate statement ni.hee.

The seriousness of your love:
You are very serious about relationships and aren't interested in wasting time with people you don't really like. If you meet the right person, you will fall deeply and beautifully in love. this one is quite true.but i did waste my time for like 7 years with him.hmm.well,its a past.period. ;)

Your views on education:
Education is very important in life. You want to study hard and learn as much as you can. hehe.yup.but hard working girl?last minute person i would say. ;)

The right job for you:
You're a practical person and will choose a secure job with a steady income. Knowing what you like to do is important. Find a regular job doing just that and you'll be set for life. yup.i do need a secure job.i dont have anybody to rely on except for myself.you know why. :)

How do you view success:
You are afraid of failure and scared to have a go at the career you would like to have in case you don't succeed. Don't give up when you haven't yet even started! Be courageous. there is someone who called me with the name of courage though. :)

What are you most afraid of:
You are afraid of having no one to rely on in times of trouble. You don't ever want to be unable to take care of yourself. Independence is important to you. exactly! im afraid of being alone.i had enough i guess. :)

Who is your true self:
You are mature, reasonable, honest and give good advice. People ask for your comments on all sorts of different issues. Sometimes you might find yourself in a dilemma when trapped with a problem, which your heart rather than your head needs to solve. mature?hee.no comment on this one. :)

rindu.

2009-03-09T18:00:00.001+08:00

people say,you will get used to lost.

but i miss them even more everyday.

hmm..

sometimes love just aint enough

2009-02-27T23:05:00.001+08:00

i love this song to death. :)
it really shows that sometimes, you just have to let go for better sake.
hmm.

hati saya rasa sunyi la.macam mane ye?

2009-02-19T23:29:00.002+08:00

whatever ur intrepretation is, these 2 pictures melambangkan perasaan saya sekarang ni.
walau saya dekelilingi dengan ramai orang.banyak kerja.
tapi.
hati saya sangat sunyi.
sangat2 sunyi.
atas banyak sebab.
hmm.
rasa tu dah sampai kat anak tekak dah.
rasa nak menjerit jer sekarang ni.
how i wished this feeling would just go away.
its killing me.
but again.
its just something that i have to face it.
whether i like it or not.
hmm.

ape saya buat hari ni setakat ini la.

2009-02-14T09:56:00.003+08:00

salam and morning everyone (if any) =)..hee
well, started the day quite early today..
pagi2 dah bgn pegi class skill and turned up tade class..haish..

dari buang masa, i decided pegi car wash..keta ku dah tak rupa keta dah..
sambil tunggu, pegi beli newspaper and breakfast..
baca suratkhabar pening kepala skit..too many issues..otak tak ready lagi nak absorb.so biarkan aje..

habis jer cuci keta, balik uia balik..ingat nak balik bilik..
tapi dah alang2 bangun ni, better buat benda yg berfaedah skit.
contohnye, pegi library. nak bagitau la yang aku ni kat library sekarang ni.hehe
tunggu rajin la tuh.hee

ingat nk cari sample pleadings, tapi akak kt counter tu kata dia tak sure the existence of such docs.huh?camner tuh?takpelah, i`ll figure out something nanti..

sekarang ni tgh dok fikir nk buat ap hari ni ek?
its saturday.bukan tak nak balik umah, but those who know me,akan tau apa akibatnye klau aku balik umah.
that is, aku akan malas nk balik uia balik.
home sweet home.the most peace place.so bila dah ade kat umah, rasa malas nk balik ke 'dunia' yg agak stress at this moment( yela, dgn keja byk.masaalah sekeliling lagi.hehe).

tak rasa nk mengadu.ntah la susah nk cakap.
hmm..nk buat ape hari ni ek?

saya penat.saya resah.

2009-02-13T19:39:00.002+08:00

Arghhhhhhhhhh!!!

ok ok ok..
saya akan cuba tenangkan diri.
tapi....
arghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!

susah!
sangat susah.
susah nyer..
kenapa la susah sangat tadi.
hmm.
over confident? mungkin jugak.
tak prepare? munking jugak.
haish.
penat la cam ni.
mcam mane ek?

oh.saya test civil procedure 1 tadi.
man.the questions were tough.
sakit paler jugak la nak menjawabnye.

dgn masalah2 sampingan lagi.
saya lama tak meluah perasaan kat dalam blog ni.
sebenarnye nk cuba belajar pendam and try to adapt with the situation.
tapi kadang2 tak menjadi.
ntah la.

saya masih mencuba.
dan akan terus mencuba.

lama nyer....

2008-12-28T18:44:00.002+08:00

salam..
dah berabuk dah rumah aku ni..
lama betul tak update blog..
hehe.
i`ll start with raya haji entry..
enjoy!

pedih.

2008-12-08T16:10:00.003+08:00

aku datang sebelum dia.
namun keadaan sangat berbeza.
dia lebih di hati mereka.
bukan aku.
sepahit apa pun ini, aku memahaminya.
aku harus memahaminya.
dan menerimanya.
jika tidak,aku akan kehilangan mereka.
dan setelah hampir 4 tahun,bukan ini yang aku mahukan.
jadi haruskah aku belajar untuk menerima 'dia'?
atau melepaskan saja?
tak tahu.tak mahu tahu.

2008-12-04T23:32:00.001+08:00

im in the twilight of edward cullen...

2008-12-02T01:27:00.005+08:00

i know some people might say im crazy,over-reacted and what not.but i just couldnt be bothered!!! haha..
i just came back from movie..i guess u guys probably have the idea which movie i watched.
ya.none other than TWILIGHT!
watched it with mint,kro,emi and farid.
GOD!theres no word to describe how great the movie was..
far far far far much better than BLOOD and CHOCOLATE.
farid was sitting next to me.i bet hes shocked seeing me reacted that way when edward came out.haha.
it was more to love story i would say.
how a vampire could love a human.the irresistable of love.
this movie convinced you that the phrase 'i would do anything for my love.just anything' does exists. hihihihi.
i couldnt stop smiling while watching the movie.
hehe.even the rest was erm..shocked?no.erm..amused?erm..no.surprised?erm..no.argh! cant describe it.they were kinda surprised i guess seeing me reacted that way.haha.
i think im in love with edward cullen! haha. i already fall in love with him before i even watched the movie.

to mint,kro,farid & emi : pls dont have any bad impression on me.u know,based on my reactions during the movie.heee..~its just..edward is too cute,handsome,romantic and all.(haha.i sounds so gatal am i? :D) thank you for your company...

to fana,aya,disya and my friends : lets watch the movie together! i dont mind to watch it over and over again.hee.in fact im planning to buy the books itself.hikhik.habislah.aku dah kemaruk edward ni.haha.

i know this is certainly not a review about the movie but seriously, u need to watch it by yourself and u will understand why i cant review the movie.its a great one till i cant even write about it.haha.crazy i know. :D
please please please go and watch the movie for those who havent.its a great one.not only because of edward but the movie itself.all the places in that movies were so fantastic.how i wished i could be in one of those places.seriously.ciptaan tuhan.

so friends,bear with my craziness towards edward cullen and twilight for..i dunno.till i forget bout it i guess.hehe.
but please go and watch the movie.and oh.ITS A LOVE STORY.more to it.so those who hate that kind of story,u can just ignore my entry this time around. ;)

in the meantime....its all about EDWARD CULLEN..and TWILIGHT of course.hiks.

im in the twilight of edward cullen. ;)

let the pictures speak..(i`ll blog bout it later..) LAW GRAD DINNER 2008

2008-11-27T14:18:00.012+08:00

my only wish to you girls.lepas ni tak minta ape2 dah..

2008-11-10T19:01:00.004+08:00

macam2 perasaan yang ade dalam hati saya sekarang ni.

sedih.happy.emotional.byk la..

how i wish i could spend the time with them.

only them.

only the three of us.

but that would be selfish kan?

they have other friends too.

its just..

i want only this time.

kali ni je.

tanpa dia.dan dia juga,

cuma kita bertiga.

one thing to ponder about.mahukah mereka? i guess hanya aku yg mahukanya.

haihhhh...go away la rasa ni.tak best la.pegi pegi.shuuuh.shuuuh.

revision di McD..

2008-11-02T01:55:00.003+08:00

assalamualaikum..
hello there!
:D
i am currently updating my blog at mcD taman melati..
oh.its 1.55am.
with disya.
fana tony and aya pun ade.
but they are sitting at the other table..
diorg tgh study criminal procedure code.
while me and disya tgh study company law.
oh.the exam is at 2.30 pm today..heeee..~
last minute? tak jugk..
its just that we cant stay at our room la..
katil tu asik panggil jer..
:D
oh.gambar2 kat bawah ni ialah gambar me and disya tgh 'mengedik' sbb ngantuk wooo..
hehehe..

budget chomel dua2..memang chomel pun. :D

mata disya yg dah kuyu..ngantuk..~

peace y'all!

dia menguap.saya?happy. ;)

saya menguap.dia?happy. ;)

sehari di putrajaya.assignment.

2008-10-31T19:51:00.007+08:00

assalamualaikum..!

ok tak gambar kat atas tu?wah disya!posing sakan! :D

nanti saya cerita kat bawah ni.
saya gembira hari ini.
tak pasti sebab ape.
tapi yang penting, saya happy.
mungkin sebab esok adalah birthday adik bongsu saya. :D
entry itu nanti saya buat. :D

ok la.saya dah upload a few pictures.
saya ade assignment utk class photography skill.
so decided nak amik gambar sekitar putrajaya on 22nd oct 2008.
tapi baru 2 jam dah mengeluh. hee..~
so tak banyak gambar..
cuma gambar msjid and JPm saje..
oh. klau ade yang tertanye2 siapa wanita yang posing sakan di bawah ni (hee.jgn marah disya), dia kawan baik saya cum model saya untuk hari tersebut cum peneman.
klau ade yang nak berkenalan, sila tinggalkan no contact ni shoutout yer. :D
ok la..nak sambung study trust.esok saya exam :D
enjoy the pics..klau boleh comment la..
saya belajar dari kesilapan. ;)

till then...

p/s: naddy,saya dah link dah.jgn majuk ye. :D klau majuk, kena mintak syamim pujuk ler.saya tak reti nk pujuk2 org. :D jom kluar makan!

im fading.fading away from their hearts.im not needed.

2008-10-27T22:35:00.004+08:00

i have few papers coming up.
i had enough this week.
past few days to be exact.
someone asked me 'why are u being so desperate?' question.
i even told 'dgr dulu org nk cakap ape'.for a few times.by different persons.
i guess im not that good listener huh?
fine then.
im the desperado.
im the not-that-good-listener.
im the bad one.
im the all-time-moody person.
anything else?
i can add the list.not that difficult to do.

p/s : i dont need this.i guess its just a pre-exam syndrom where everything is not right.everything.

letter for her.should i give her?

2008-10-14T23:14:00.003+08:00

emm...

i have a letter for her..that i wrote for aya..
but im not sure whether the content is suitable..at least at this moment..
but i think since its my sincerity,its shuld be ok kan?
emm...

nanti la..

tag you.tag me.

2008-09-30T12:57:00.003+08:00

for the first time ever i was TAGGED!
it was by nurul, my bestie..

so here we go:

1.What is the most important thing in your life?
my family.that means my angels = my sisters.

2.What is the last thing that you bought with your own money?
my savings consider my own money kn? beli brg dapur for raya.

3.Where do you wish to get married?
my home sweet home.=)

4.How old do you think you will be permanently owned by your love?
i wish till death do us apart.

5.Are you in love?
ermm...yes and no. :D

6.Where was the last restaurant you had dinner?
Secret Recipe

7.Name the latest book that you bought?
i forgot.

8.What is your full name?
Nur Syazwani Rosli

9.Do you prefer your mother or father?
oh please.never ask me to choose.the answer is both. =)

10.Name a person that you really wish to meet in real life for the first time.
Fezrul Khan.hahahaha.

11.Christina or Britney?
none.eh wait.maybe christina.she's honest.

12.Do you do your own laundry?
absolutely! klau tak sape plak nk buatkan..huhu

13.The most exciting place you want to go?
London

14.Hugs or kisses?
hugs.

15.8 things I am passionate about .
bags.
shoes.
my car.
my sisters.
my lappy.
makan.
shopping.
gossips. hehehe

16.8 things I say too often
tapi gak..
ok,ok..
benci betul..
yerla tuh..
ek...
apehal kau?!!! (ni time klau driver lain buat hal..hehe)
biarlah..
sakit betul ati aku..

17.8 books I’ve read recently
8?!! currently is La Tahzan.

18.8 songs I could listen to over and over again
better in time
bleeding love
terima kasih cinta
sadis
coba
kejujuran hati
cinta ini membunuhku
i kissed a girl

19.8 things I learned last year
to be more patient.
to respect others.
appreciate those who really care bout you.
banyak lagi..

20.Tag 8 people
fana
aya
kak wiznie
theplainsingleworld
naddy
anyone who read my blog =) if any la.hehe

........

2008-09-29T03:09:00.000+08:00

no idea where to start.
it hurts all of us.mostly her.
tapi kita harus menerimanya.for it is what Allah has decided for us.
Nothing is best except what Allah has decided for us.
i must say i`ve learnt a lot from what had happen.
byk yg masih tak terungkap.
tapi Allah itu Maha Mengetahui.

My pray for him and her.
His kindness and her cheekyness will remain in our heart.

and to my dearest aya,be strong.
aku akan sentiasa bersama aya.no matter what.
i will always be by your side as how u had always do the same to me.
dalam apa jua keadaan.

Ya Rabb, kuatkan hatinya.semangatnya.imannya.nuraninya.dalam menghadapi dugaan Mu ini.

Al-fatihah buat mereka.Amin.

"Barangsiapa yang oleh Allah dikehendaki menjadi baik maka ia akan diuji
oleh-Nya." (Al Hadits)

buka puasa with mint's friends at Flaming Steambot,Sunway..

2008-09-20T15:01:00.006+08:00

13 september 2008

its saturday..aku kat rumah..tapi min ajak teman dia pegi reunion buka puasa kat flaming steambot..we went there with farid and tipah..ingat tak ramai..rupanya dekat 30 orang ok!

giler ramai..we arrived quite late sbb parking tade..but wel eft quite late jugak..around 10.30 baru gerak..hehe..buaka puasa aku yang paling lama..

mint and her friends decided to go for karaoke..but because we brought along farid and tipah, we had to sent them home 1st..

dari sunway to klang.then we gathered at dataran merdeka with others.guess how many cars?10.10 ok.giler ramai..

then we headed to this karaoke place suggested by kuman,mint's friend.we got there around 11.30..

we left the place around 3.30 p.m..so after that sume org disperse..but ade kawan2 min yg followed us.so we dropped by Mcd for sahur..man..it was a long night.yet it was fun.

below are the pictures..malas nk buat caption..hehehe..

Pre-Grad Photography Session Class of 2008

2008-09-20T14:10:00.008+08:00

aku memang slow.hehehehehe..kejadian ni dah lama..tapi aku baru nak update sekarang..hehehe..
busy la guys..
so aku update ikut date la ek..hehehe
meanwhile,enjoy the pics!

12 september 2008

hari ni on schedule is pre-grad photography session Class of 2008 AIKOL (batch 041 & 042)..mula2 tu tu aku malas jugak nk pegi since im not graduating this semester...but thinking that my friends are and probably this is the only chance left to take photos all of us wearing a proper law student dress (ape lagi,black and white la..hehe),i agreed..hehehe
we did it before buka puasa..around 4.30pm..but started quite late..
penat2 puasa pun tak terasa..siap ade pose2 terbang2 lagi..haha
it was fun!!!
how fun it was? LOOK at the pictures.. :>

ok..this is before the session started..we waited almost 45 mins i guess ..

oh..ni time nak susun the flow..memang susah..ramai plak yg "beriya" nak bagi instructions..so tak tau nk ikut yg mane satu...hurm..one thing to ponder about huh?hehehe..

the ladies...
BATCH 041 & 042 CLASS OF 2008

NICE!
I WAS.STILL AM PROUD TO BE ONE OF THE LAW STUDENTS.

after amik gambar ramai2, kitorang disperse..nk amik gambar with friends plak..fana brought her brother,farhan..considerly personal photographer la..THANK GOD we did that.hik hik

disya.wanie.iwan.aya.fana

me and iwan

ketuk dia!

me.acting like a pro.hahaha.padahal amateur pun tak.hik hik.
anthony.shazali.iwan.aya.fana.disya.ME

ramai..but still i wanna named them.
back row from left to right: fit.ME.axwa.fana.yati.ina.elina.ijo
front row from left to right: disya.kak narz.hied.aya

not ready.but i like it.ME.fana.dave.aya.disya.anthony

wearing-glasses guy= am. blue baju melayu= pi'e.kebetulan he was passing by.
my fav pic of all....
we were getting ready to fly..
and the result is.....
WE WERE FLYING!

only the four of us.Room 2.6 Block C Sem 1 2008/2009
IM FLYING HIGH!
i requested from farhan to snap this sitting-on-the-grass pose...

and guess what...
beautiful huh?creative farhan... =) (he got a 'chanteque' gf.sofea is her name. )
candid..

im so glad to have u girls..really am..looking at this picture realy touched my heart..reminds me how close we are..
with anip..tall guy.he really is..

hurmmmmm...banyak plak gambar dgn anip ni..jgn jeles la sape2 gf dia..haha..

the session ended..erm..how shuld i describe it..TREMENDOUSLY.we were so happy.

saya tak suka apa yang awak buat.sudah2 lah.

2008-09-12T14:06:00.002+08:00

bulan2 puasa ni saya tak nak lah mengeluh banyak.
tapi klau benda dah slalu jadi, takkan saya nak berdiam diri saja?
kenapa saya tak berdepan dengan dia saja?
sebab nya..NO POINT.

im tired.i really am.tired of being overshadowed by others.
tak perlu kerja saya di war war kan satu dunia.
tapi tak perlu lah anda mengambil kredit di atas kerja orang lain.
saya cuma mahu dihargai.tak perlu pujian.

tapi biarlah.saya tahu apa yang saya buat.oh.tak perlu curi ayat saya dan menjadikan nya seolah-olah datang dari anda.

entry yg pedas tapi tak pedas sangat.i know.
but at the end of the day, awak tahu apa yang awak telah buat.kan?fikirkan lah.

p/s: im totally FINE. :)

let the pictures do the telling..

2008-09-04T06:09:00.004+08:00

salams!
these are what happen lst week..
mock trial + paksu's engagement..
im abit sleepy now..
baru lepas sahur..
i`ll blog bout the pic later ya.. ;)

dia yang chomel.

2008-08-26T01:48:00.002+08:00

no.he is not my son.im not married.as yet. :D

he is my friend's son.

nak anak mcm dia boleh?

hehe.

comel.

its time when i have to let go.for real.

2008-08-24T01:03:00.003+08:00

i`ve learnt alot today.
i've learnt not to put too much hope on anybody.
whatever.
oh and one more thing.a major one. THINGS DO CHANGE.accept it wanie.
decided to be a risk taker from now on.
not that i wasnt before.
its just that, this time around, it will involve bigger risks.a lot more.
and to you, no more YOU in my life.YOU dont need me.YOU never needed me in fact.
so im letting YOU go.
so i can move on.
its hard but still i must do it.
my last goodbye to YOU.

cuba
cuba kau dengar
cuba kau cuba diam bila ku cuba untuk berbiacara dengan kamu
pernahkah kau ada
bila ku perlu tuk menyatakan rasa hati
dan bila kau bersuara
setia ku mendengar
agar tenang kau merasa

siapa sebenarnya aku padamu
mungkin sama dengan teman lain
yang bisa kau buat begitu
dan bila tiada lagi teman bermain
kau pulang mendapatkan aku
itulah AKU padamu.

cuba kau lihat
cuba kau cuba
renung ke mata aku bila ku kaku melihat mu
pernahkah kau ada
bila ku perlu tuk menyatakan rasa sakit dalam diri
dan bila kau perlu
setia ku menunggu
agar senang kau merasa

siapa sebenarnya aku padamu
mungkin sama dengan teman lain
yang bisa kau buat begitu
dan bila tiada lagi teman bermain
kau pulang mendapatkan aku
itulah AKU.

maafkan kerna ku tak pernah
terlintas tuk menulis padamu
maafkan aku
tak mungkin lagi aku meminta
untuk kau mendengar
untuk kau melihat ke mataku

i love you.very much i do.

2008-08-01T17:58:00.005+08:00

in loving memory of mama..
somehow i felt this song sgt la related to my life..boleh nangis tau bila dengar lagu ni..and whenever i listens to this song, 1st person that would come across my mind is mama..

Melawan Kesepian by Siti Nurhaliza

Apapun yang terjadi

Berjalanlah tanpa henti

Air mata tertahan

Waktu untuk dijatuhkan

Nanti kita kan tahu

Betapa bijaknya hidup

Sepahit apapun ini

Pelajaran yang berarti

Semoga kepergianmu

Tak akan merubah apapun

Semoga mampu kulawan

Kesepianku

my weekend

2008-07-28T23:06:00.006+08:00

salam alls..

wah! penat betul aku ari ni..

dari kul 9am sampai 4pm classes non stop!

lepas class, aku aya and fana pegi carefour cari barang skit..

sampai uia dekat maghrib..

sampai je bilik trus flat..tapi sempat lagi mandi la..

then aku tertidur dlm kul 9.30..

kul 10.30 terjaga dah..

lepas ni mesti tak tau nak buat ape dah..

bout last weekend...

aku pegi mandi sungai kat ulu yam! BEST!

kami pegi ber 7..aku,aya,fana,ijo,azwa,kak ji,hajar...

kami gerak dalam pukul 10.30..

pergi 1 keta dgn 1 van..

then 12.30 aku aya and fana gerak dulu coz kami ade hal dgn kak ana(kakak fana)..

kak ana turun kl..nk cari barang hantaran dia..kami jajni nk jumpa kat sogo..

sampai kt sogo,kak ana dah ade barang yg dia berkenan..so tinggal nk bayar je..

aku plak lepas tu pergi minerva..cari buku untuk ena..
PERGH! buku2 utk budak finance memang murah..buku dah la tebal and yet harga dia satu dalam rm 80 je..tak aci tau..klau buku law tu,nipos giler..tapi harga,ya ampun!takpela..orang kata beli buku ni its a good investment..

nway,below are my pictures..kenapa ade aku je?sebab nk jaga sensitivity la..

yg lain tu permission nye aku tak minta nk letak gambar..to be safe,aku letak gambar aku je..

jadi la kan..daripada takde..

okla..till then, enjoy the pics! ;)

saya yang asyik bermain air..

mari kia main air!!!!!

its makan time! :D

2008-07-24T22:49:00.003+08:00

salam..
wah..i was suppose to make entry last nite,tapi blogspot buat hal skit..tak dapat nak upload..
semalam aku ngn fana pegi secret recipe for our buka puasa..aya didnt join us..hehehe
wanna know WHY??sebab...yesterday was a big day for her and zum..zum went to see aya's family..nk kenal2..hik hik..so aku ngn fana pergi membawa diri ler...hhehehehe...

aku yang menunggu noodle in tom yam kung

kami pegi secret recipe yg kat taman melati..secret recipe ni baru bukak..so agak ramai la..cuma service dia agak slow skit..tapi understandable..baru bukak..kita bagi chan la..

ni fana yg pose untuk aku..pose ala2 comel la tu..hik hik.. while waiting for our meals..

WOW!!! ni la dia noodle in tom yam kung yang aku order..pedas dan sedap! nk menangis aku dibuatnye..susah woo nk habiskan..agak pedas.tapi BEST!oh ya! fana ordered grilled black pepper chicken..lupa nk amik gambar dia..but i guess u guys tau kan meal tu.. :)

tgh menikmati makanan ku!huihhhhhhh...tak pandang org dah..hiik hik...

pose lagi...yg empty plate tu fana punyer grilled black pepper chicken..kan aku dah cakap..susah nk habiskn tom yam kung tu..fna dah hbis makan pun aku tak habis habis lagi.. ;)

and finally, the dessert..memang sedap..aku sekarang sgt craving cheese cake..yg ni caramel cream cheese..manis so kena ade plain water la bila nk makan cake ni..baru la balance..tapi aku order another drink..green apple kasturi..hehehe..sangat tak sihat kn? tak peduli..jani aku suka.. :D..

ni plak brownies walnut..fana yg order..tapi dia kata tak sedap sangat..aku tgk pun tu tak sedap kot sebab texture dia agak berderai..tak moist dah..bak kata fana "biasa la..i kan dh biasa makan yg fresh baked ..hahahahaahahahahahaahahahaha" gila ayat tak tahan ayat dia..hik hik hik..jgn marah fana..

hari ni puasa lagi..tapi ingt nk pegi jalan TAR..tapi tak tau lagi..

till then... :)

departure day 17th may 2008

2008-07-18T18:42:00.004+08:00

ok giuys..lets start bout melbourne's trip.. kami pegi on the 17th may..flight pkul 9.20 pagi..
tapi kami sampai quite early 7am..and guess what?!!!!nk check in tu,que nye,ya Allah panjang sangat!!!sebab morning flight,jadi congested la skit airport tu..kami sampai2,aya tak sampai lagi..dia dgn ehem2 nye still on the way..nk tau sape ehem2 nye? u will know by the end of this entry..

i took this picture and i like it..masa ni , plane belum take off lagi..so sempt la aku snap sini snap sana.. :D
cant wait to be in melbourne!!!

nak tau tak diorg tgh tgk ape? CERITA KOREA. diorg ni kan, kat mane2 pun korea nye influence memang tak boleh lepas la..haish....

nak tau tak mcm manu rupe en.ehem2 aya tu?

hehehehehehehe...ni lah dia..dia yang antar aya pegi airport..nama dia.. ZUM.hahahahahaha..there u go.i mentioned his name..jgn marah aya.. ;)

yin,ena,aya and zum..aya senyum lebar gewe dio anta.. hik hiks.

kami sampai melbourne roughly pkul 7 time melbourne..sampai2 je terus peluk fana..tak sempat nk amik gambar sebab kesejukan..its 15 deg kott!!!!

sebelum sampai rumah,kitorg singgah kt sahara beli garlic prawn pizza..and guess what, because i was too exhausted,still i was hungry, i had too many pizzas..and sampai aku muak and dah tak makan pizza kat malaysia..to even say the word prawn pun aku dah tak nak dah..uWEEEEEEEEKKKK!!!nak muntah tau..hish.,tu la..ikut nafsu makan tu sangat..

ok,next entry will be about puffing billy... ;)

in the meantime,enjoy the pics..

melbourne's pictures are here! yeay!

2008-07-18T18:29:00.003+08:00

ok..form now on wards i`ll be updating bout my trip to melbourne..sebabnye gambar2 kami kat sana fana dah bawak balik!yeay! finally!!

tak sabar nk update..tapi memandangkn its a 2 weeks trip..i need sometimes jugak to update everything..all the activities..so bear with me ya..

these past two days, aku byk jugak motivate diri to be more positive..cant believe its quite hard to do that..but im trying my best.. :)

ok guys, dont forget to take a look at my entries on melbourne nanti kayy! ;)

-=untitled=-

2008-07-11T17:52:00.002+08:00

i really dont know how to think..

received some news lately..

bout my family, my friends , my ex.

i just dont know how to think..

i really dont know..

oh my..

which one eh?

2008-06-16T23:54:00.005+08:00

salam...wow!busy day? boleh la..sibuk dgn keta aku yg asyik rosak jer..ke bank lagi settled all the small2 things..then dgn sibuk cari contractor lagi..oh! im renovating my kitchen.. :D

ade rezeki skit,so my sister and i decided that we need to do something with our kitchen..selama ni ia hanya dapur biasa..so this time around we want something lain skit la..

tak la lain sangat pun..pasang tiles,cabinet and add 1 more toilet..quite a big project that need a lot money..hehe..utk org lain maybe la biasa jer..tapi utk kami yg tidak bekerja ni,its a bit risky la..tapi nk tak nk kena jugak buat sebab dapur tu dh tak boleh tahan dah.. :D

the problem now is..i havent decide on what kind of design for the kitchen..as for myself,i prefer old classic style..i kan old-fashioned.hehehe..my sister plak suka yg modern skit..tu yg pening tu..tak tau nk decide cane..we have 2 days to choose design yg kitorg nak..because after 2 days,contractor dah nk start keja2 memecah belahkan dapur tu..hehehehe..

i found few designs from internet..tapi ntah la..mcm berkenan..mcm nk letak sume design tu jadi satu..hehehehehehe..tamak tu..hiks..

below are the few designs yg aku berkenan..

super white!nice!tapi mcm cepat kotor jer..hehe

yg ni pun aku suka jugak..simple..oh.aku mmg suka wood cabinet..

ni yg paling aku berkenan..old fashion..still,i loiike! :D

hurmm....im still thinking la...

takper2..ade 2 hari lagi..

hehehe..

lcatch u later guys..need to do some thinking.. :D

whatever.

2008-06-14T01:01:00.001+08:00

you dont have to be that mean.

just whatever.

i had enough.

seriously.

so just stop.

a bit on melbourne..

2008-06-12T01:39:00.003+08:00

sesi baring2..hehe

last day.

sunset kat tlstra dome..nice..

fana,aya,ME and yin.Ena took this pic..

the whole family..A BIG TQ TO THEM..

assalamualaikum...

ade org ke ni ? ;)

nway,lama jugak tak buat entry ni..bak kata fana,sampai dah berabuk tau..hehehehe

i will be posting about my trip to melbourne tapi kena tunggu gambar2 sampai..sbb ari tu tak sempat nk bawak balik..

a bit of intro bout the trip..it was a trip with my 2 sisters(ena & yin) as well as aya (my bestie)..so theres 4 of us..we had planned this trip since last year lagi..visited a friend named fana yg dah ade kat sana since april jaga anak2 buah dia kat sana..she will only be back here somewhere in july 15 klau tak salah la..

We had been to great places..bout the places,really..u guys have to wait till i got the picx la yeh..it was a 2 weeks trip..a great,faboulous,happening trip i ever had..

so,name pun intro kan..pics kat atas ni are some yg aku dapat bwk balik..while waiting for full entry,u guys enjoy la pics kat tu dulu.. :D

Better in Time by Leona Lewis

2008-06-12T01:18:00.004+08:00

oh my..im so in love with leona lewis now..espc with her new song here..despite her voice, this song ade la kena mengena skit with my life..but im through with it.. ;)

It's been the longest winter without you

I didn't know where to turn to

See somehow I can't forget you

After all that we've been through

Going coming thought

I heard a knock

Who's there no one

Thinking that I deserve it

Now I realise that I really didn't know

If you didn't notice you mean everything

Quickly I'm learning to love again

All I know is I'm gon' be ok

Thought I couldn't live without you

It's gonna hurt when it heals too

It'll all get better in time

And even though I really love you

I'm gonna smile cause I deserve to

It'll all get better in time

I couldn't turn on the TV

Without something there to remind me

Was it all that easy

To just put aside your feelings

If I'm dreaming don't wanna laugh

Hurt my feelings but that's the path

I believe in And I know that time will heal it

If you didn't notice boy you meant everything

Quickly I'm learning to love again

All I know is I'm gon' be ok

Since there's no more you and me

It's time I let you go

So I can be free

And live my life how it should be

No matter how hard it is

I'll be fine without you

Yes I will

nothing much

2008-04-28T09:46:00.007+08:00

ni pkul 8.10am kat jalan sultan ismail

hye there!post hari ni mcm biasa je kot..gambar kat atas tu aku amik masa tgh stuck dlm jam yang teramat lah menguji kesabaran aku..nasib ade my D40..hehehe..tak la sunyi..tu yg aku amik gambar segala bagai la..tayar keta moto,gambar laki bini tgh bermasam muka dalam keta.hehehehe..tapi takkan nak letak kt sini..tak leh..nanti i kena sue plak..

then, bila dah depan jw marriot,nampak keta honda ni..aku tak tau la siri ape..tapi nampak smart je keta dia..berkenan i..terus amik gambar..biarla org nk kata ape..
fuh! champion white dia mmg marvelous! baru cuci keta ke bang.???hehehehe..nothing much la today..saje je letak gambar2 yg aku amik..nanti aku upload gambar aku and mak's family pegi makan kat muara...best woo!kitorang pegi mase cuti hari buruh..ramai..sedap dan puas hati la makan kat sana..biarpun aku spent dekat rm600 untuk 23(termasuk budak2) orang punya makan..berbaloi la..meanwhile,nikmatilah gambar kat bawah ni..i captured sendiri ok! i think its nice bukan sebab ape,sbb menepati frame yg aku nak.exactly.so kira berjaya la..hehehe..

love it.

conscience v heart

2008-04-27T15:55:00.001+08:00

between conscience and instinct...which you should follow?

erm...im hurting...thats what my heart says..

but my conscience says..'wanie,dont be.pls.just dont.'

which to follow?

whatever the answer is..i am hurting.

still am.

please.let this feeling go away.

please.

its soooooooooo MY DAY! :D

2008-04-23T17:48:00.002+08:00

its 5.50pm..and in 10 mins i`ll be leaving the office! yeay! ;D

nway,hari ni kt office best lar.. i get to do so many things..dari yang kecik2 sampai la ke benda yg really related to my future profession..

morning mmg tak byk keja sangat..i just searched for files. then, nk dekat tghari,en.ahmad,one of my master,dh masuk office,jadi keja pun melambak..which is good! i like! ;)

started with cases involving financial facilities.continued with auction case and ended with sale and purchase agreement...oh my! today's lessons are great!

benda2 kecik plak mostly macam guna type writer.i know for some people,they might question me back 'is that what u do during ur attachment?!!'

and my reply is..helllllllloooooooo!!!klau ko tak reti pakai typewriter is even worse ok..takkan nk bergantung kt admin staff je..so yes,i learnt on how to use the typewriter..

and i did write letters..walaupun dah ade template..still its a good experience..biarla ape org nk kata.. :D

my master asked us whether we want to continue or not..at least to complete one month la..sbb attachment ni sebenarnya 3 minggu je..

the offer sounds really good! im looking forward actually..banyak benda yg aku boleh blajar lagi..atun and zara maybe tak dapat because they need to do their short sem..

im thinking la..
i wanted to take the offer..
tapi tadi en ahmad mcm cakap sekali je..
should i remind him of what he said tadi ke yek?
ermm...(thinking2..) :D

we'll see la yeh..i will u know the result..
catch u later..nak balik dah nie.. ;)

HELP IS NEEDED

2008-04-22T13:57:00.002+08:00

my very first post during attachment. ;)

hari ni masuk hari ke-7 aku berattachment..

how was it so far?i went well..i hope so.

LAP ni in some ways,i thought me a lot.

among others:
1.to be patient.

2.to smile MORE and MORE. :D (see im smiling :D)

3.to apprecciate people around me.because when they are not around,it kills me.

4.even when u thought that u are doing well,u are actually not.how so?do the attachment and u will know.:D

5.tak tau nk tulis ape dah... :D

but seriously,it really thought me alot la..like i dunno how to describe it.and i think,im learning to get to know myself better.to understand more bout myself before i could understand others.

and just like yesterday,still its not my day today.. :(
being emo?i dont think so.

i am just telling u of what i felt.
aiyok!!!!! what am i talking about ni!!!!
fana!! :D
aya!!
disya!!

HELP IS NEEDED.

catch u later la..nak buat keja.

i missed the good old days..

2008-04-02T03:47:00.004+08:00

i really really really missed the good old days...

can i have another day of this? girls,what do you say? :)

attachment attachment...

2008-03-31T21:54:00.003+08:00

erm..not sure its a good news or a bad one..this coming april, 14th april to be specific..i will be doing my attachment kat one of the law firm located kat Bukit Bintang..aikol programme..1 month attachment je pn..

problem is...i dont like to start with a big firm..aku dapat tempat tu pun dari atun,one of fav seven members..zara,another member will be joining us as well...

and baru je tadi i was told by farah a.k.a aya that she'll be working as a temp kat firm yg dia buat attachment dulu..that firm,currently,is handling one of the high profile case! shit! i wanna do my attachment there..not because of the high profile case.but its because its a small firm yet it handles such cases..once i was told that if u wanna learn anything on practical side of lawyer's thingy,u shuld start with a small firm where u get to do everything..

hurm....there is one solution.afta i the attachment, i wanna continue the attachment with aya..even if without payment..lessons and experience are what matters...

hopefuly plan aku ni mejadik ler... ;)

later..have revision to do..exam la this coming thursday..ya.i know..i keep repeating about it. hiks.

aiiiiiiiyookkkk!!! bising lar!

2008-03-31T18:40:00.004+08:00

hurm..while im making this entry,fire drill tgh memekik mekik kat block aku ni...dari aku elok2 tgh baca buku, trus tak boleh baca..bingit la wei! cane la aku nak baca..lagipun org kata petang2 ni memang tak sesuai untuk sebarang activity bacaan..hehehehe.alasan ler tu.. ;P

hurm...lama dah aku tak balik umah..i guess more than 3 weeks? lama betul..tiba2 teringat kt my 2 angels tu..sape lagi klau bukan si ena and yin(my lil sisters)..really missed them..i wanna go home..but i have THREE CONSECUTIVE PAPERS starting this thurs..hurm..really missed home.

but girls..hope u all faham the situation..i love to be at home very much..once im there,it feels like i dont wanna go anywhere else..nanti klau aku balik in the mid of exam weeks ni,mesti dah tak nak balik uia dah...nk duk umah je..sayang la nk tinggaikn umah tu..hiks.

so the best solution is..wait till i finish my exams.then..aku akan duk umah.. ;)

aiyoo!! bila fire drill ni nk berenti memekik????? bingit la! bang technician! tolong la fix kan benda alah tu supaya dia tak memekik lagi! i nk exam la u... ;)

cant wait to be home..really missed u girls.

aaarrrrggggghhhhhhhh!!! saya nak balik rumah. :(

its been a while

2008-03-31T03:23:00.002+08:00

wow! its been a while since my last post..last post was in february..and its already end of march which means almost 1 month since the last post..i guess i was right when i posted once in a month entry.. ;)
nway..its 3.40am and still i am awake..ni gara2 redbull yg aku minum la nie..was supposed to do my readings tapi i take a break la kejap..baca baca sangat pun letih jugak..its final exam weeks..and i have 3 more papers to go..huaaaarrrrrrghhhhhhh...those papers will be in 3 days consecutively starting 3rd april..

ok,enough of that..as usual..its sunday and i did nothing..i mean takde ape sangat la..bangun pun lambt.i woke up at 1.30 pm tadi..hehehehe..yup.late.very late.that is because i went to bed late..slept at 6.30am..so bangun pukul 1.30noon tu kira ok la..hiks.
bangun2 jer,received sms from frenty..he's online..and so i connected the internet and we chat till like 4.15pm mcm tu..

tiba2...perut ku berbunyi..hihihi..baru tau lapar..time tgh chat ngn frenty tadi tak ingt lapar..went to nasi ayam mancongkam..fuh! ramai giler org kat situ..aku tapau je...bought for disya,fana and as well..

dah kenyang...ape lagik.aku pun sambung tido..hahahaha..gila perempuan ni (aku ler tu)..dah la bangun lambat..lps makan leh sambungtido lagik..hish..anak dara anak dara.. ;P
ala..lagipun aku tido tak lama..kejap je..kul 6.30 tido kul 7 dah bgn..tak la tido..i rehatkan mata je..hiks..

pkul 8.45 aku gerak pi umah auntie aku kat sri gombak..kitorg nk tgk abpbh..yeay! mawi menang! aku suka..!hahaha..big fan of mawi?kind of.. ;) habis jer aku terus gerak balik uia balik..and NOW..im doing this..doing an entry...yg lama aku tinggalkan..

but seriously..i`ll be back la..afta the exams,insyaAllah aku akan ade byk masa to make entries..so just wat for it! need to do some revisions..

'oh Allah,plssss make me pass with flying colours this time around...amin'

my red,grey and black & white shoes..

2008-02-27T23:32:00.006+08:00

my red shoes from nichii

actually,kasut ni aku beli masa nk pegi birthday party adik dev,harvinder..theme party tu red black & gold.so i bought this red shoes to pair with my red clutch..

nak dijadikan cerita..aku memang sengsara party mlm tu..kasut ni wat hal la plak..tetiba kasut ni jadi besar..bila nk jalan skit,terkedek kedek aku jalan..memang spoilt my mood la..tak yah cakap la aku mlm tu..rasa macam nak duduk lekat kat kerusi je..tak nak bangun2..hehehe..that night was the 1st and last aku pkai kasut ni..hurmmm...what a waste laa..

my grey shoes from nichii

kasut yang ni pun dari nichii gak..went to jusco bukit tinggi last week with my sis..

singgah nichii,ingat nak cari kasut merah yg atas tu tapi saiz 8..coz yg kat atas tu saiz 9..terlebih besar plak untuk aku..

cari jugak kt display,tak nampak pun..nasib baik sales asst. kat situ ingt kt aku..so i asked him bout the red shoe tapi nk saiz 8.

and u know what he said???? 'sorry la kak..dah habis!'..

i was so frustrated..giler.tapi ternampak plak si kasut kelabu ni..nk mengubat hati yg tak dapt kasut merah tu,aku pun try kasut kelabu ni but size 8..

MUAT! terus beli..hhehehe..gila la..

last week jugak i received air mail from indonesia..it was actually from vivi..she was an exchange student..datang aikol last december..stayed for 1 month je...tapi we are close sbb she stayed in the same room with me..

to vivi..TQ darl! i love the shoes and bag u bought for me..but sadly,kasut tu wanie tak muat.. ;)

so i gave it to my lil sis,yin..takpe kan? ;) TQ SOOOOOOO MUUUCCCCCCH! :)

malas nk upload pic kasut tu..dari tadi cuba tapi tak boleh..pesal ntah...takpe..yang penting kasut n bag tu cantiiiiiikkkkkkk! ;)

hurm...nk tido dah nie...

later... :D

cuppa cake!

2008-02-27T18:19:00.003+08:00

just got back..

went to damansara to collect aya's passport..

then we went to damansara uptown to find this cupcake cafe named wondermilk cafe.

actually, cupcake diorg ni dah lama famous..

through their blog la..

lama dah aku mengidam nk makan cupcake diorang ni...selama ni duk tgk gambar2 cupcake kt blog diorg jer..

hari ni merasa jugak la..love the cafe..above all, LOVE THE CUPCAKE! cantik and very presentable..u guys shuld try la..aku end up beli 4 maxi(rm15),4 royal(rm18) and 1 plexi box..

oh! gambar diatas explain it all.. :D

hurmmm...sedap kan? :D

ok la..nak enjoy the cupcakes!

catch u later la.. ;)

while waiting for my pre-reg...

2008-02-26T15:49:00.002+08:00

hurm...
lambatnye la nk tunggu pukul 5 ni..jap lagi nk buat pre-reg course for next semester.
usually, ni la masanya aku slalu dapat heart attack..hehe..nk berebut2 pilih subject and lecturer..
hurmm..hopefully kali ni ok la..so while waiting,teringat plak kt blog sendiri..lama tak menulis nie..

last week i went for a movie..last tuesday to be specific..tgk CJ7 dgn aya,fana and disya..BEST GILER citer tue..the next day i went back home..ade janji sama adik gue ler..then we went to jusco for lunch and decided to watch movie..

cuba teka movie ape? :D hehehehe CJ7 again!
memang citer tu best sampai aku tgk 2 kali 2 hari berturut2..mcm nk pecah perut tergelak..and macam nk bengkak mata menangis..balance la..banyk moral jugak..sesuai ditonton oleh sume lapisan masyarakat.. :D

hurmm...my car sakit lagi..kali ni bumper depan plak buat hal..hurmm..last week aku pegi damansara to settle on aya's passport..parking kt situ memang hampeh skit! dah la jauh ke bawah,scary jugk la..pastu cerun jugak la..habis terseret keta aku..tu yang bumper ade picah skit la..takpe la..nanti aku bawak ke guna la..mcm biasa la Guna!owh! Guna tu tukang ketuk kereta..keja dia mmg superb! harga pun superb beb! ;D

i have stories.. :) tapi mcm takut plak nk tulis kat sini...mane la tu satu hari nanti ade yg terlibat tu came across with my blog ni..hurmm..but seriously, rasa nk cerita..tapi..nantila :D

i think after this, aku mesti sibuk giler...lectures ade lagi 3 weeks..that means, final exams is just around the corner...lepas final, kena buat attachment plak..then to melb..though the melb thingy is actually a vacation,still mesti penat..

tiba2 rasa macam banyak keja kena buat..tapi belum satu pn yg terbuat.. :D

oh!

i think my next update will be on dev's sister's birthday party.. :D
gained a lot of experience mase kat party tue.. ;)

hurmm...

lammmmmmmmbbbbbbbaaaaaaaaaaaaaattttttttttnyeeeeeeeeee pukul 5!

Once a month entry? :D

2008-02-14T01:55:00.002+08:00

salam everyone.if any. :D

hurm..title entry pun dah tau aku memang jarang dh buat entry.last entry was 23rd jan and today is 14th february. hihi.memang once a month entry huh? ;P

nway,yup its valentine day.but im not gonna talk bout it.not my interest pun.hihihi.mcm ayat sedih je.bukan ape,just not the routine to celebrate VDay. :)

its 2.am and still im not sleepy.i have 8am class tomorrow.hurm.patutnya aku masuk tido dah...
tapi disebabkan hari ni,i skipped all classes, so i spent the day by ...sleeping all day lonnnnngggg!!
akibatnye, dah tak boleh tido dah sekrg..

why i skipped all classes?
malas + ade problem till aku mals nk bangun and ingt prob tu + i just dont feel like wanna learn anything today. :D

woke up at 2.45pm.mandi dan bersiap2.kemudian lapar.hihi.tau pun lapar.klau aku tak kenal lapar, sure aku tak bangun2 lg.. :D

then i went to KFC.by myself.for take away.aya said its weird.well aya,its not that i never done it before.byk kali dh makcik oi aku sorang2 kluar..

balik bilik and waited until 5.30pm and fetched aya and fana from their PIL test.(oh! its Public International Law).balik bilik..

then 8.45pm,had dinner with aya and fana again..we chit chat for awhile, then i went to their room.chit chat again.and again.and again.

sambil2 tu aya buat homework khat dia..aku ngn fana tgk jer..hehe.sory la aya.im not that creative though im a lefty. :)
at the end fana gak yg tolong kau. and still aku pandang2 sipi gitu. :D
sambil2 tu kitorang chit chat lagi.ya ya ya i know.we love gossiping. so what?

went back to my room roughly 11.50pm.had some discussion with disya and now im blogging and disya is watching ugly betty.

SO,the question now is. BILA NAK TIDO NI? I HAVE CLASS TOMORROW! 8AM PLAK TU!

and the answer is.NOW.IM GOING TO SLEEP. :D
ngantuk dah.so the abovementioned is my routine for today. ESOK? tak tau la.we wait and see.
just normal mcm biasa jgk agaknya.pegi class balik class.hurm..BOSAN.BOSAN.

dah.dah.dah.nak tido ni.
till we meet again..when?next month?hahahahaha.

nite everyone.

2008-01-23T16:09:00.000+08:00

salam everyone.. :D

my very first post of the year 2008!

aku harap sangat2 la kali nie aku akan rajin memblog.

dan aku akan merajin rajin diriku yang malas ini untuk sentiasa post issue2 terkini ker, gossip ke, luahan hati ker..eceh!

first post maybe tak se gah mane la..

tapi pada aku gambar diatas melambangkan siapa aku..

WHY????

hehehehe...

get to know me then..