lesson 2: what goes around,comes around.

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lesson 2

what goes around,comes around.believe it.

wher should i start?

simple sbenarnyer.ape2 aje yg kita buat kat orang,pasti akan terjadi pada kita.

itu janji Nya.

sebab itu Allah bagi kita akal.so that we can think before we act.

tapi kita ini manusia.we are open to mistakes.

BUT! we need to learn from the mistakes.tak boleh berdiam diri saje.

ok back to the lessons.

sebelum ni,ade la something terjadi kat aku.

nak cerita pun payah.sakit hati pun yer.

but to make it short and simple, it started when that person accused me of something that i wasnt meant to do.

that in some way i had hurt that person.that i neglected that person.that i had isolated that person.

believe me.that wasnt the intention.

but unfortunately,that was what that person felt.

i said sorry.and then we were okay.

BUT NOW! guess what?!that person did exactly wht i did before.see darling?it was not my intention to hurt u.i was just making friends.just like what u are doing now.the different is,i can totally understand.i accepted it.

but what makes me hurt is,the words that u gave to me before.about me isolating u.about me hurting you.for doing THE SAME thing u are currently doing.its the words that hurt me.not the action.take note on that.thats what makes us different.

so,what should i do with the situation?

all i can think of is,to learn from it.im not sure whether u learn from it or not.

but i surely do.how i wish i colud throw back those words u gave me before.

but im not as cruel as u.i guess.just not yet.

i can still bear with it.

so sakit hati whenever i think about it.

well, what goes around,comes around kan? ;)

Allah is The Almighty.He had shown it to u.

i should be thankful.i am.

rindu sama kalian. :(

lessons in life

dah lebih sebulan tak update blog.

rasenyer la..

hee.

byk sebanrnyer yg nak diupdatekan..

tapi busy jugak.

busy tido sepanjang hari.

busy pegi class.

busy beronggeng dgn adik2.

busy beronggeng degn kawan2.

busy ym-ing.

busy segala lah!

dalam byk2 busy tuh, byk jugak yg aku belajar..

lesson 1

jangan minta sesuatu yg kita sendiri tak pasti mampu utk buat atau tidak.

all this while, aku slalu jeles bila tgk org ade couple..

on weekends, pegi mane2 pun jumpa couple..

aku sendiri pun teringin gak nk ade companionship..

nak ade org blanja tgk movie ke pegi jalan2 ke..(bukan kau ye mint..ni aku maksudkn lelaki.hehe)

bila ade masalah nk jugak bercerita..(ye fana aya mint disya,korang mmg pendengar setia..tapi kadang2 nk gak bermanja.kang aku bermanja dgn korang kang lain plak jadinyer..haha)

dan selama ni jugak,klau dgr kawan2 yg nak kawin or dah kawin,stress aku akan datang secara mengejut! dalam kepala aku,'KENAPA AKU TAK DE CALON LAGI?NAK KAWIN JUGAK!'

kawan2 dah terbiasa dgn sikap aku yg satu ni.

adik2 pun sama.

dah byk kali diorg advice aku.

masuk kepala satu hari je(belum jodoh,ade la tuh nanti,ko tak ready lagi sbenarnye.dan bermacm2 alasan diorg bagi sbb nk calm kan aku) tapi satu hari je la.esok maraung lagi.gelenyah teh. :))

dan pada satu hari, ade la seorang hamba Allah yg baru dapat hidayah.alhamdulillah.Allah itu Maha Esa kan.Niat di hati dia nk cari seorang isteri.aku kenal pun sbb ade org kenalkan.

mula2 on the phone, mmg he had made his intention clear,that he is looking for a wife.untuk bimbing dia.and he asked bout my opinion.i said,jumpa dulu.and we agreed.

bila dah jumpa,aku pula tak rasa we can go further.takde spark.and cara dia tak kena dgn cara aku.tak salah dia pun.bila jadi mcm ni,aku berfikir jugak.dulu nk sangat kawin.dah ade calon depan mata,tak nak plak.ape sebanrnyer yg aku nak?!

bila direnung2kan,baru aku faham.Allah tunjuk pada aku,aku tak ready sebenarnye utk kawin.yg selama ni aku merungut yg aku ni takde calon nk kawin tapi nk sangat kawin,sebenarnye aku tak ready lagi tuk sume tu.Ya Allah..byk cara sebenarnyer Allah nk bagi hidayah dan jalan.and i guess this is one of it.

pada yg mungkin terluka,saya minta maaf.ade yang lebih baik utk awak.semoga Allah akan terus memberi cahaya hidayah Nya buat awak.

kawan2 yg selama ini tahan dengan kerenah aku.terima kasih jugak. :))

adik2 yg tak jenuh dgr keluhan hati saban hari,aku sayang korang.sangat2. :))

lesson 2? tunggu entri seterusnya. ;)

surprise yang menjadi.akhirnya.

salam everyone.
lama tak update blog ni kan. :D
but entry kali ni ade story skit.
about a surprise.for a friend.yang selama ni susah nk buat surprise kat dia.
sebabnye surprise untuk dia slalu tak menjadi.
slalu kantoi surprise kat dia.
but this time around, with the help from disya(thank you so much bestie! tanpa kau, surprise ni tak menjadi tau! ;), AKHIRNYA.SURPRISE untuk dia MENJADI.yeay!
siapa la agaknye orang yg di surprise kan? hehe
tak lain tak bukan cik fana kiter ler.

kronologi surprise adalah seperti berikut:

masa minggu final exams
dapat kad jemputan dari fana.
katanye abe pih nk kahwin.
dia suruh datang jgk.
but that time i told her mungkin tak dapat datang.
yerla,jauh tuh.
cuti plak time tuh.
tapi mase tu doubtful lg nk pegi ke tidak.

19th april 2009
final exam dah habis.
aku pun nekad nk beli tiket bus ke kota bharu.
terus pegi kat sani express counter yg kat shah alam tuh beli tiket bus ke kota bharu.

shah alam-pasir mas
departure: 1 may 2009 8.00 mlm

pasir mas-shah alam
departure: 2 may 2009 8.50 mlm

right after beli tiket, terus call disya.
informed her bout the plan.
siap bgtau ni jgn cakap kat sesiapa.
nobody knows la katakan.
and she agreed with the plan.

30th april 2009
went out for dinner with fana,aya,axwa and mint.
i asked fana,' flight mung esok balik kb pukul brapo?'
she said 1 noon.
i told her,kim salam ke umi and ba.
maaf la tak dapat datang.(ececececeh,acting la konon.hiks)
then she replied.'mung ni buke leh cayo.silap2 esok ade kat umah aku'.
ALAMAK!DAH KANTOI KE?
but still in the mood of pretending, i said no.
tak leh nk gi.mane nk cari tiket.
she bought it.dia percaye weh!
lega aku.
plan sedang berjalan dengan lancar.

1st may 2009
pukul 7 mlm, ena hantar aku kat stesen bus kt shah alam.
aku nervous.
tak pernah lagi travel sorang2 naik bus.
even kro(boyfren min cum org kelantan cum best fren aku jugak) tak caye yg aku ni bakal menempuhi perjalanan yg memakan masa 10 jam untuk ke pasir mas.
nway, I DID IT DUDE! hehe.

2nd may 2009
pkul 5.45 am, sampai pasir mas.
disya datang amik.
kesian dia.pagi2 dah kena bangun amik aku.
hehe.thank you so much disya.

sampai kat umah disya,aku tido kejap je.
then bangun and breakfast dgn mummy disya,angah disya,and disya's little rascals(anak2 buah dia la..4 of them ;) )
lepas breakfast,siap2 disya ajak pegi rantau panjang.
mula2 pegi umah tailor dia.
then terus ke rantau panjang tempat shopping tuh.
tapi tak shopping pun.
beli sepasang tudung,2 kain.buat emak angkat aku.
balik dari rantau panjang (siyes tempat tuh mmg panas la tapi mmg heaven untuk bershopping), siap2 nk pegi umah fana..

surprise!
sebelum pegi umah fana,ade la singgah a few places
pegi jumpa along disya.then pegi town kejap.
pastuh pergi murtabak raja.(orang kelantan mesti tau ni.femes dek murtabak dan akok nye)
then ke rumah fana.
jeng!jeng!jeng!

aku yg nk wat surprise utk dia pun rasa nervous.
sampai je,agak ramai la jugak.
family fana mmg femes.hehehe.
first family member yg nampak aku is farhan.adik fana.
then umi.
dan kemudian............
FANA!
wah nepik dia nampak aku.tapi control ayu lg.hehe.
akhirnya!surprise aku berjaya.
dia kata memg tak sangka aku nk datang.
ade instinct tapi dia kata surprise ni kira berjaya jugak la.
yes wanie! u made it!hiks.

then aku pergi menyapa kaum keluarga yang lain.
nk mention satu2 kang entry ni jadi berjela2 plak.(dah berjela dah pun.hee)
lepas makan aku pun jumpa ahli keluarga lain nk minta diri.
yerla msa tuh dah pukul 5.00 ptg.
janji dgn mummy disya nk dinner kt umah.

and so mlm tuh aku pun naik bus pulang ke shah alam.
perjalanan yang panjang.tapi bermakna.
kata 10 jam kan.mcm2 pikir.
tgk ragam org lagi.
:)
so kat sini aku nk make a few credit la.
first of all,definitely to disya.
tq so much bestie!
ko mmg host yg terbaik. :)
tq kt mummy and papa and angah disya jugak.
for letting me stay kt ur house.
to rani,(disya's maid) masakan loh memang kerennn! ;)
and to fana,yes! aku berjaya akhirnya!

wah panjang giler entry aku kali ni.
amik kau!sekali hupdate terus berjela.kira qada' la ni yeh.

meanwhile enjoy the pics taken during my trip to kelantan. ;)

Bisakah yang terhina dicinta?

kebelakangan ini, hati berkata dan bertanya.
mampu kah? bisakah?
hmm.
tapi masih mencari jawaban.

Daku Terasa Ingin Membawa
Cinta Yang Terlara Ke Titik Mula
Kembali Mencuba Untuk Kali Kedua
Menggilapkan Gerhana Jiwa

Pernah Ku Terasa Ingin Merayu
Pada Kasih Dulu Pulang Padaku
Lupakan Dosaku Putihkan Kelabu
Tenangkan Amarahmu
Namun…


Bisakah Yang Terpadam Dinyala
Bisakah Yang Terhina Dicinta
Walau Ku Himpunkan Sesalku
Bisakah Terbuka Kalbu

Naluri Meminta Kuungkap Kata
Seindah Bahasa Janjikan Setia
Akan Bersemilah Cinta Dihatinya
Percaya Ku Semula
Namun…

Bisakah Yang Benci Disayangi
Bisakah Yang Dusta Dimaafi
Walauku Himpunkan Sesalku
Bisakah Terbuka Kalbu

Bila Senduku Berlinang Sayu
Dalam Rindu Ku Tertanya

Bisakah Yang Benci Disayangi
Bisakah Hatiku Difahami
Walauku Himpunkan Sesalku
Bisakah Terbuka Kalbu

makan bersama si kecik.

i dreamed a dream

this lady really reminds me of what my mama always taught us.
that you can never judge a book by its cover.
that inner side of a person is so much important than the outside look.

i was called big bird back when i was in my secondary.
since form 1 until form 5.
can u imagine that? hehehe.
people would remember me like this 'oh.which wanie?' 'ala,wanie big bird tuh'.
i was and still a chubby girl in secondary school.but the nickname was given not because of my size but because of my eye lashes like the big bird in sesame street.
thats where i got my nickname.

in fact i was called big bird until now.hee.
when i was in form 1, i complained to my mother that people at school been calling me with names.
and she asked me what kind of name.and so i told her bout the big bird.
and i cried in front of her.i remembered it was dinner time.
and instead of consoling me, she was mad at me for crying over that matter.
she said,'why should u cry? u should held your head up high and tell them that YES.I AM THE BIG BIRD BUT! WITH A BIG BRAIN'.

wow.i was stunned.it was SO motivated that time.in fact until now.thats what keep me going i guess.
and now,i dont mind people calling me big bird. :D
at least,at some point,though not that good, i am A BIG BIRD WITH A BIG BRAIN.hee.

so, how its related to the video above?
senang je.never let anyone pull you down.
coz u can do it.

my final exam result was out yesterday.cpc paper scares me until i looked at my result yesterday.
i was a bit shocked.and grateful at the same time.
it was not as good as others.but it was the best for me.
despite what i had gone thru last sem,it was all worth it.

i was so happy and yet i was sad.
sad because i could not share this with mama.
sad because i keep on question myself why didnt i performed like this when she was stil alive.
BUT. i know i cant have both.im grateful for what HE has given to us.
sangaat2 bersyukur.

at the same time,i realy hope that i will keep on performing like this for the next sem.even better.

hopefully..

biasa2 aje

sudah lama saya tidak update blog ku ini.
hehehehe.
exam dah lepas.
currently im at home.
busy jadi surirumah.
tapi tak la busy sangat.
not much update.
later la h kay. ;)