terasa nak berlari.

saya terasa nak berlari.

berlari ke hujung sana

tanpa peduli apa pun di sekeliling saya.

tanpa peduli apa orang kata.

tanpa peduli apa mereka rasa.

tanpa peduli siapa pun mereka.

saya terasa nak berlari.

berlari sekuat hati.

selaju mungkin.

sejauh yang boleh.

agar hati yang rapuh ini

tidak lagi disakiti.

tidak lagi dibebani.

tidak lagi berhasad dengki.

satu hari saya akan pergi.

tanpa mereka sedari.

itu pasti.

itu janji.

new semester,new goals.

salam everyone.

tomorrow, a new semester will starts.

and as usual, im currently still at home.

esok pagi2 baru nk gerak balik uia.

for those yg kenal aku,they wuld definitely know whats going on.

im having this syndrome called taknak-balik-uia syndrome.

the symptoms are as follow:

1.sepatutnya check in mahallah harini tapi ditunda kepada esok.

2.sepatutnya dah packing barang2 tapi masih belum buat.

3.asyik mengeluh tak nak balik uia.sampaikan mood pun terganggu.

4.belum balik uia dah plan nk balik rumah everyday for first two weeks.hehe

5.once melangkah kaki keluar dari rumah,rasa sebak terus melanda.

6.banyak lagi.tapi nanti akan diberitahu kelak.



so these are the symptoms.maybe ramai akan kata,mcm la dia sorang je homesick.rumah dekat pun nk homesick.i couldnt care less.thats me.mmg mcm ni dari zaman matrik lagi.except symptom no.5 tu baru2 je.



why do i have all this symptoms?

simple.i love staying at home so much.i hate when my sisters are not before my eyes.im afraid that something would happen and im not there.it happened before.

im also afraid of being in uia because i may not have time to go home because if i go home,then i would reluctant to go back to uia and so i wuld decide not to go home.u get what i mean?

yang ni pun pernah jadi jugak.sampai kan hampir sebulan tak balik rumah.

nk kata pelik pun ya.nk kata mengada2 pun ya.



BUT! regardless of anything, for this new semester,i have few goals that need to be achieved.



1.puasa is coming.im planning to buka puasa at home EVERYDAY.if possible la.that means i'll be off-campus during ramadhan.IF POSSIBLE la.

2.try to go home every weekends.and tak nak dah liat balik uia.

3.i wanna improve my result.i made it last semester.i wanna do it better this time around.

4.focus on my studies.no more main2.

5.DIET.why this one no 5 eh?hehe.i guess less important kot.NAH! tak la.i`ll try my best. =)

6.NO MORE PONTENG.hehe.this one pun if possible la.klau tak ponteng langsung mcm impossible je kan?it shuld be LESS PONTENG. ngeee.

7.there will be more tapi nanti diupdate lagi.



so whether i can achieve these goals or not,bergantung la.tawakkal is also very important.

despite the abovementioned goals, i also have the things-which-i-need-to-just-disregrad list.

but that one i`ll do later la kay.that list is important jugak.so that i would not waste my time on unecessary matters.

tawakkal kepada Allah.Usaha pun penting.word for myself.

till we meet again.
hurm.MALAS NYE NAK BALIK UIA.HELP!

he's married.

he's married now.

i should be happy kan?

i am though.

but the moment i saw the pictures..

i was blank.and tears dropped.

lots of things on my mind now.too many.

memories..

away.

salam..

i`ll be out from blogging world for a period of time.

how long would that be?

well,it depends.

i have final exams next week.there will be 2 papers only.

most importantly,on the 24th.

i hope i would not be away for too long.

nervous.scared to death.

hope everything is going to be okay.

Ya Allah,i hope everything will be smooth-running.Amin.

otherwise,its going to be the biggest challenge in my life..

my apology to you.

salam.
i have to admit.
ape2 benda yang berasal dari rasa marah dan dendam,
takkan ade penghujung yang baik.
entry yg sebelum ni,penuh dgn amarah.
tanpa beringat,dia juga slalu ade untuk aku.
tanpa beringat,yang aku juga perlukan dia.
despite ape pun yg terjadi.
support each other is what we should do.
mungkin langkah yg aku ambil sebelum ini salah.
terlalu agresif mungkin.and harsh.
mungkin aku terlalu bongkak.membuatkan dirinya terasa begitu kecil.
sedangkan tidak.dia tidak kecil.
there's always 2 sides of story.
bukan semua salah dia.
bukan juga semua salah aku.

saya minta maaf.sepenuh hati.kepada awak.
i wish we could be as close as before.

should i even dream bout it?

ok ok dokay..

salam everyone..

im back blogging.hee.

well,ni sebenarnyer tak boleh tidur..

im thinking of something.

that is...

I NAK KURUSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS!

i know i know i know..

some may said,that u had heard bout it ages ago.but nothings changed.

hurm...

i cant even look myself in the mirror..

not that i hate what Allah has created, but its just what i had done to it,damaging my body and still i did nothing so far to even cure or heal it.

i need to do something.im 24.i wanna look like 24.or even younger.

impossible?possible.

i hope. hee.

i need to do it by myself.

how am i gonna do it?

ntah.no idea so far.

but right now,one thing for sure,i wanna look like her.

who's 'her'?

from this to

this.can ah? heee



some people may say,alahai berangan la wanie ni.

i couldnt care less.


from tomorrow onwards,im going to do something or anything,so i can be like her.or at least be 10% out of her.hahaha.crazy me?


well,a challenge to myself.seriously.


i need to fix something.