setelah dia pergi..

setiap kali bila dengar berita yang tidak menyenangkan,seperti kematian,hati ini mesti sebak.biar pun orang yang meninggal dunia tu aku tak kenal.pernah juga tgh2 drive on the road, nampak van jenazah lalu dengan lampu siren yang berkelip-kelip, aku tersu menangis.

kadang2 bertanye jugak pada diri sendiri.kenapa menangis?menangis kerana teringatkan mereka yang meninggalkan aku dan adik2 atau menangis kerana aku tahu apa dan bagaimana rasenyer kehilangan orang yang kita sayang.apatah lagi jika pemergian itu secara tiba-tiba.

believe me, the least i wanna hear about is the news about death.bukanlah menolak ketentuanNya,cuma kadang2 tak boleh nak control sebak di dada.hari pun jadi muram jer.

these past few days, i've been sick.sakit gigi la.demam la.muntah2 la.nothing serious.cuma semua jadi dalam waktu yg sama.when i was sick,sangat-sangat teringat my arwah mama and ayah.aku mase tu teringin sangat nk cakap dgn diorg.tell them im sick.i wanted to be consoled.by them.not anyone else.teringin sangat.sampai nangis jugak la.

mungkin juga perasaan ni sebab tgk tv byk sngt.yerlah, ahad lepas kan mother's day.on that day itself, aku and adik2 pegi dinner.and we could see that ramai family yang kluar makan to celebrate mother's day.hati jadi sayu.tapi hati juga kena kuat.tak boleh nangis depan adik2.my adik2 pun seems strong.or maybe they wanted to look strong,just like me.ya Allah,macam mane lah agaknye hati mereka menerima semua ini?harap2 hati mereka tabah seprti mana mereka tabah secara luaran.

setipa kejadian ade hikmahnye.i`ve been telling myself this over and over.supaya tidak terpesong sangat dengan kesedihan di hati.

to those out there (in case you are reading this, :)),aku bukanlah manusia yg baik sgt pun.aku juga pernah nakal.esp dengan mak ayah.but if your parents are still alive, appreciate them.respect them.care for them.kadang2 ade jugak geramnye dengan mak ayah kita ni.but take it something that we will remember bout them.jangan sakitkan hati mereka.because when they are gone, that is the most yg kita akan ingat.because if we dont respect,appreciate and care for them,when they are gone,that will be the most regrettable moment in our life.

this entry was made because my dear adik farhan (fana's brother) had just lost his fiance-to-be.her name is alya.she had undergone a surgery in singapore.after the surgery she was infected that cause her death.May her soul rest among blessed souls by Allah.when i heard the news, tu yg teringat nk buat entry ni.

to Farhan,sometimes we thought we could never be able to get thru this.but eventually,without we even realising it,Allah will help us to ge thru this.Allah itu Maha Pengasih.Dia takkan beri dugaan yang tak mampu kita tanggung.. ( a word to myself jugak ) sabar yer dik..

Fana, you too need to be strong.especially utk Farhan.he needs everyone's support.which im sure he will have it from all of you..sumthing that no need to worry about. because ur family is full with love and support.i know that. :)


Semoga roh Alya,Mama, Ayah, and Delima ditempatkan dengan orang-orang beriman dan dicucuri rahmat.Amiinnn...

p/s: Minty, all of a sudden,aku teringat kau.we need to be strong kan?we are and will always be. :)