i dreamed a dream

this lady really reminds me of what my mama always taught us.
that you can never judge a book by its cover.
that inner side of a person is so much important than the outside look.

i was called big bird back when i was in my secondary.
since form 1 until form 5.
can u imagine that? hehehe.
people would remember me like this 'oh.which wanie?' 'ala,wanie big bird tuh'.
i was and still a chubby girl in secondary school.but the nickname was given not because of my size but because of my eye lashes like the big bird in sesame street.
thats where i got my nickname.

in fact i was called big bird until now.hee.
when i was in form 1, i complained to my mother that people at school been calling me with names.
and she asked me what kind of name.and so i told her bout the big bird.
and i cried in front of her.i remembered it was dinner time.
and instead of consoling me, she was mad at me for crying over that matter.
she said,'why should u cry? u should held your head up high and tell them that YES.I AM THE BIG BIRD BUT! WITH A BIG BRAIN'.

wow.i was stunned.it was SO motivated that time.in fact until now.thats what keep me going i guess.
and now,i dont mind people calling me big bird. :D
at least,at some point,though not that good, i am A BIG BIRD WITH A BIG BRAIN.hee.

so, how its related to the video above?
senang je.never let anyone pull you down.
coz u can do it.

my final exam result was out yesterday.cpc paper scares me until i looked at my result yesterday.
i was a bit shocked.and grateful at the same time.
it was not as good as others.but it was the best for me.
despite what i had gone thru last sem,it was all worth it.

i was so happy and yet i was sad.
sad because i could not share this with mama.
sad because i keep on question myself why didnt i performed like this when she was stil alive.
BUT. i know i cant have both.im grateful for what HE has given to us.
sangaat2 bersyukur.

at the same time,i realy hope that i will keep on performing like this for the next sem.even better.

hopefully..