Saya sunyi.

Saya sunyi.

Sangat-sangat sunyi.

Cuba cari ubat tapi tak jumpa sampai hari ini.

Cuba cari punca kenapa sunyi.

Masih tak jumpa.

Tapi bila fikir balik, saya yang nak macam ni.

Saya yang pilih untuk tidak jumpa orang.

Saya yang elek untuk ke mana-mana.

Tak punya alasan kenapa.

Entah la.

belajarlah untuk cinta.

wanie, tolonglah.

sila bekukan hati anda.

setelah dia pergi..

setiap kali bila dengar berita yang tidak menyenangkan,seperti kematian,hati ini mesti sebak.biar pun orang yang meninggal dunia tu aku tak kenal.pernah juga tgh2 drive on the road, nampak van jenazah lalu dengan lampu siren yang berkelip-kelip, aku tersu menangis.

kadang2 bertanye jugak pada diri sendiri.kenapa menangis?menangis kerana teringatkan mereka yang meninggalkan aku dan adik2 atau menangis kerana aku tahu apa dan bagaimana rasenyer kehilangan orang yang kita sayang.apatah lagi jika pemergian itu secara tiba-tiba.

believe me, the least i wanna hear about is the news about death.bukanlah menolak ketentuanNya,cuma kadang2 tak boleh nak control sebak di dada.hari pun jadi muram jer.

these past few days, i've been sick.sakit gigi la.demam la.muntah2 la.nothing serious.cuma semua jadi dalam waktu yg sama.when i was sick,sangat-sangat teringat my arwah mama and ayah.aku mase tu teringin sangat nk cakap dgn diorg.tell them im sick.i wanted to be consoled.by them.not anyone else.teringin sangat.sampai nangis jugak la.

mungkin juga perasaan ni sebab tgk tv byk sngt.yerlah, ahad lepas kan mother's day.on that day itself, aku and adik2 pegi dinner.and we could see that ramai family yang kluar makan to celebrate mother's day.hati jadi sayu.tapi hati juga kena kuat.tak boleh nangis depan adik2.my adik2 pun seems strong.or maybe they wanted to look strong,just like me.ya Allah,macam mane lah agaknye hati mereka menerima semua ini?harap2 hati mereka tabah seprti mana mereka tabah secara luaran.

setipa kejadian ade hikmahnye.i`ve been telling myself this over and over.supaya tidak terpesong sangat dengan kesedihan di hati.

to those out there (in case you are reading this, :)),aku bukanlah manusia yg baik sgt pun.aku juga pernah nakal.esp dengan mak ayah.but if your parents are still alive, appreciate them.respect them.care for them.kadang2 ade jugak geramnye dengan mak ayah kita ni.but take it something that we will remember bout them.jangan sakitkan hati mereka.because when they are gone, that is the most yg kita akan ingat.because if we dont respect,appreciate and care for them,when they are gone,that will be the most regrettable moment in our life.

this entry was made because my dear adik farhan (fana's brother) had just lost his fiance-to-be.her name is alya.she had undergone a surgery in singapore.after the surgery she was infected that cause her death.May her soul rest among blessed souls by Allah.when i heard the news, tu yg teringat nk buat entry ni.

to Farhan,sometimes we thought we could never be able to get thru this.but eventually,without we even realising it,Allah will help us to ge thru this.Allah itu Maha Pengasih.Dia takkan beri dugaan yang tak mampu kita tanggung.. ( a word to myself jugak ) sabar yer dik..

Fana, you too need to be strong.especially utk Farhan.he needs everyone's support.which im sure he will have it from all of you..sumthing that no need to worry about. because ur family is full with love and support.i know that. :)


Semoga roh Alya,Mama, Ayah, and Delima ditempatkan dengan orang-orang beriman dan dicucuri rahmat.Amiinnn...

p/s: Minty, all of a sudden,aku teringat kau.we need to be strong kan?we are and will always be. :)

3 tahun.

3 tahun.

saya suka awak.

3 tahun.

saya pendam rasa.

3 tahun.

saya tahan dengan dingin awak.

3 tahun.

kejap kawan kejap tidak.

3 tahun.

saya tunggu ajakan awak.

3 tahun.

baru dapat jumpa awak.

3 tahun.

saya cuba lupakan awak.

3 tahun.

saya masih ingat awak.

3 tahun.setakat 3 tahun.

cukup lah 3 tahun.

takkan ada tahun yang ke 4.

p/s: sumpah pengakuan berani mati.huhu

Saya rindu dia.sangat rindu.

This song reminds me of her.

In Memory

Delima @ Nur Syazreen Rosli

1989-2003

Al-fatihah.

Kak Wanie rindu Ime.

Aftermath

'Aftermath' by Adam Lambert

Have you lost your way?

Livin' in the shadow of the messes that you made

And so it goes

Everything inside your circle starts to overflow

Take a step before you leap

Into the colours that you seek

You give back what you give away

So don't look back on yesterday

Wanna scream out

No more hiding

Don't be afraid of what's inside

Gonna tell ya you'll be alright

In the Aftermath

Anytime anybody pulls you down

Anytime anybody says you're not allowed

Just remember you are not alone

In the Aftermath

You feel the weight

Of lies and contradictions that you live with every day

It's not too late

Think of what could be if you rewrite the role you play

Take a step before you leap Into the colours that you seek

You give back what you give away So don't look back on yesterday

Wanna scream out

No more hiding

Don't be afraid of what's inside

Gonna tell ya you'll be alright

In the Aftermath

Anytime anybody pulls you down

Anytime anybody says you're not allowed

Just remember you are not alone

In the Aftermath In the Aftermath

Before you break you have to shed your armor

Take a trip and fall into the glitter

Tell a stranger that they're beautiful

So all you feel is love, love

All you feel is love, love

Wanna scream out

No more hiding

Don't be afraid of what's inside

Wanna tell you you'll be alright

In the Aftermath

Wanna scream out

No more hiding

Don't be afraid of what's inside

Gonna tell ya you'll be alright

In the Aftermath

Anytime anybody pulls you down

Anytime anybody says you're not allowed

Just remember you are not alone In the Aftermath

In the Aftermath

Gonna tell ya you'll be alright

In the Aftermath

In the Aftermath

Just remember you are not alone

In the Aftermath

p/s: Love the song.but not the singer. :p

hati,jantung dah otak diuji.macam mane tu?

Dia mengajar kita untuk bersabar.

yang membezakan antara manusia adalah tahap kesabaran itu.

tapi lumrah manusia,sabar kita ada batasnya.

rasa seperti kesabaran sudah sampai ke tahapnya.

sehingga tidak mampu dibendung lagi.

mungkin juga belum.

dada ini seakan-akan ditusuk pisau yg tumpul berkali-kali.

tanpa henti.

lukanya cepat sembuh.kerana ada pengubat yang mujarab.

tapi ubat juga bila selalu diguna,akan hilang kesannya.immune.

selagi masih boleh bertahan,bertahan sajalah.

hati,kuatlah.

jantung,jangan degup selajunya.sakit.

otak,berehatlah.penat.

harapnya biar tak jumpa hujung jalan kesabaran itu.

p/s: saya tak pandai berkata-kata.tapi inilah seikhlas mungkin yang datang dari hati.dan perasaan.

just another nite which i cant sleep! so here we go!

wow! sangat-sangat lama taupdate blog ni.
bukan setakat bersawang dah ni,ni dah tahap lalang naik tinggi dah.huhu

nak kata busy,orang lain pun busy jugak kan? :)
nak kata malas,erm..itu mungkin. :D
nak kata mengelak untuk berbicara mengenai nya juga berkemungkinan. :)

life has been really good.so far.alhamdulillah.takde la masalah yg major sampai tak terhandle.
kerja pun ok walaupun dah masuk dekat 4 bulan,masih lagi dalam mood yg nak adapt dgn environment.mengada-ngada i know. ;)

my angels,ena and yin.though ade skit masalah,its not something that we cannot fix.time will decide.

friendship.erm.this one really got tested.
tapi kata hati menguatkan semangat.
we need to know who or what is our priority.
we need to open up our eyes to see who is actually having our back whenever we are about to fall.
sometimes we thought that they were there,they got our back.
but unfortunately,its just shadow of them.its your mind that wants them to be there.
but in reality,it can be someone else.

thats why u need to open up your heart and eyes.
so that you would not lost those who actually there for you.

and another lesson,dont take things too seriously! a note for myself. =)
i need to cheer up and look forward!
awaits for what will happen in future..
isnt that much for fun than spending too much time grieving for what had happen in the past or even hoping something would changed but u did nothing to make that changes?
im being too positive i know.

but i need to be. :)